MAX

As I sit hear and cry
I question myself and ask God why

The pain is so real
That I pray for time to make it heal

I lay in bed at night
Just trying to convience myself what I did was right

I talked to you as if you are here
Just because I love you so, Max my dear

I miss playing the in and out game
My precious Max the house isnt the same

As the day and nights seem longer
My love and missing you just gets stronger

You touched my life that words cant express
I guess that is why I stay so depressed

As I stare at your empty bed
Oh the visions of you in it in my head

Max Please patiently wait for me
Until my time is up and my eyes no longer see

You where mommy,s protector and my rock
So me feeling this way shouldn't be a shock

So sleep in peace my little boy
You where and are my pride and joy

LUV YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH
Your Mommy FOREVER

12/2/2009 Will be a day I will never forget

Thank you Dottie you are so special

Anna your poem for darling Max is so lovely.

Dottie you are spreading your Angel dust happiness here yet again.

You two are up very late again, and I am yet again up very early .... couldn't sleep so got up at 4 am, felt drawn to you all, and then saw what you'd posted for me.

Thanks both of you.

Love Jan and my Angels xx

Thanks Jan I just left you a post. Seems that there is a higher power that keeps us here. I am up all the time. I do very little sleeping even when I go to bed just stare and listen into the night.
Anna

Thanks Anna

I hope you can manage some sleep. Some nights are getting better for me now. I have a photo on my bedside table, of Tasha and Noushka together. One of many that I have in my bedroom. I kiss their dear faces in that photo each night before I turn off the light, then I close my eyes while the image of them seems to be imprinted . I plainly see them, and it sort of makes me feel so warm and comforted. I can then manage to fall asleep. Usually only for a couple of hours though. I seem to wake so early every morning , thats when the sad realisation sets in again, that there's no darling girl to lick me and fuss me and talk to me, -yes sammies are very vocal dogs and they do seem to talk, def can say something like 'I love you' in a 'wer wer wu' sort of way.So I usually get up between 3 and 4 am. Look out at where their little graves are in the garden, which as you say, now looks as if they're covered in a thick blanket of snow. Always hoping to see their paw prints.
I then come on here and there's usually a message from one or other of our dear new friends. It really is comforting , isn't it, to know that such dear and caring people are thinking of us.

I hope that tonight you can manage some sleep, and that you have lovely dreams of your darling Max.

Thinking of you. God bless.
Love and hugs
Jan
xx

Thank You Jan

Anna

Hello, Sweet Jan and Anna. Please know that your Angel Fur Babies are at the Rainbow Bridge, young again, healthy, happy and so loved. They're waiting patiently for you and have all they need and that their heart's desire ... Except for you. They wait patiently for that One Sweet Day when you'll be reunited for all Eternity! In the meantime, the joy and beauty where they are simply cannot be measured using mere words.

Winging many Angels to soothe and guide you through this most difficult time in your life.

You are both wonderful Fur Kid Mommies! Please, never forget that. You're also dear, sweet, loving, caring, compassionate, precious and unique people who shine so brilliantly like diamonds in the sky. Word!

Big Hugs to you and Angel Fur Kids Max, Noushka and Tasha!!!

I Wish You Love, Light and Peace!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Thanks Dear Dottie, and you've done it yet again...... look what I copied from a Sammy website before I went to bed last night. Hope it comes out ok.

Love Jan xx





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Anna..what a heartfelt poem..I can feel your pain in your words. Max misses you too but he will patiently wait for you..and he is waiting now to see you smile and laugh..(and sleep).

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Oh, Jan. That is positively adorable! However did you come across it? I may just have to "pinch" it and save in my files.

Thanks oodles and boodles for sharing. Awww so cute!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

oh Anna..Max is a cutie pie...look at the wrinkle in his forehead...like he is in deep thought in this pic.

Hugs to you and your fur angel Max,
Brutus' Mom

Thank you Brutus' mommy if you look close it looks like a pitch fork I always called him my little devil so cant you emangine him with his angel wings. Its been another horrible day. Every time I try to venture away from home all I do is cry. I know out shopping today crying people must have thought I lost my best friend and little be known I did. Max your are so dam cute you and your little nub tail. Please dont ask for your tail back mommy loves you just the way you are. You came to mommy that way and I love you just the way you are. So even if at the bridge you get teased for no tail tell them your mommy luvs you just the way you are.

Luv Anna

Hi Dottie I just sent you an email and low and behold I opened up my post and you choose the one that I love. I cant thank you enough while I sit here and just cry.

xoxo
Anna

Dear Smokey/Lady/Max, I was reading your poem and took me back in time when I was [still am] going thru really bad time when I had to say good by to my Son Buster, as I was reading it felt the pain yours and mine and catched my self with tears rolling down my face again. I like to offer you my condolonces to you and your family, take good care wishing you Merry Chritsmas and a Happier New Year, sometime here if you need me, Jorge Click to view attachment

Thank you so much jorge for your kind words. This has been very dificult for me to deal with but I know I have to except it. I can only hope I will see him again.

Anna

Hi pretty boy mommy had to visit here before I went to sleep and see your beautiful picture that mommys new friend Dottie did for me. She sure did good didn't she. I hope to dream of you I havent yet but I know you will come to see me in my dreams soon. I know you have come to visit while I am awake but I want to see you at that beautiful place that everyone talks about. If it is a beautiful as the pictures and poems I know you like it there. Lots of sunshine which you love.

Nite Nite my baby
Mommy

Hi Baby boy Just wanted to visit my pretty little angel. I am so loney without you here in my life.
Sending you head scratches and bunches of kisses

Mommy

Hi Pretty boy Mommy was very sad I didn't have you here yesterday. I held you up some of mommy's christmas dinner I sure hope you got it. Dozer was looking at me like mom I am down here not up in the air. I miss you so much.

Luv You
Mommy

Hi My Baby mommy is very sad today I am thinking about you so much. I just want you here with me. I wish i could just bring you back. I love you so much

Luv Mommy

Just want to tell you mommy wrote another poem I hope you here my words. I sent it streight to heaven.

Missing you
Mommy

Max I miss you soooo much I will tell you that everyday for the rest of my life. I send you your head scratch today and lots of hugs and kisses. Your buddy dozer sure misses you too.

Luv Mommy

Max, Our friend Dottie has not been here to visit us. Please guide her to here so that we know she is ok. Do your little magic sweet baby.

Luv You
Mommy

Hi Sweet baby your brother dozer ran streight up to your grave today. His footprints in the snow lead right to you. I hope you know he was there. Love and Miss you.

Love Mommy

Hi My Angel,

Mommy just wants to tell you goodnight and I love and miss you. I am going to take a picture of Dozer foot prints going steight up the hill to you and when I can post them here I will. I hope you are happy playing and sleeping with MO MO. Sweet dreams of mommy. I cant wait until mommy has one of you. I know you are busy right now and settleing in in your new beautiful home. So when you can come visit me in my dreams I will be waiting. I know you have been here in spirit but I would love to see you in my dreams.

Nite Nite my angel
Mommy

Its just mommy letting you know we havent heard from our special Angel Dottie. Please see if you can find her and lead her back to us here. She has helped so many of us here who have lost angels just like you. Mommy will try to sleep tonight I am sure you heard me crying for you last night but I cant help it. Mommy gave you head scratches and kisses last night I hope you got them.

So lonely without you by my side
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Guess Who

Hi My Angel well its New Years Eve and I am not looking forward to starting the New Year without you in it. Mommy has done alot of researching about if you are in heaven waiting for me. I know you are. I will be thinking about you tonight when the clock strikes midnite. I will send you my first kiss.

Luv and Miss You
Mommy

Happy New year my baby hope you are enjoying it with your brother and sister. Sure hope you are in a way better place then us. I will try hard this year to go alittle easier on myself. Its going to be tough without you here in body but I know you in spirit I have heard you. It really di make me feel better I know you have visited a couple of times. So keep comming to check on me. I always give you your head scratches before I go to bed.

Luv You
Mommy

Have trust in that Max will never leave your side. Only worlds separate you for now. Loving spirits NEVER die.......only the shell. Let the warmth of the sunshine of his memories keep you warm and thankful that you had such a wonderful life with him.

Many comforting hugs from my heart to yours,
Beth

Thank you Beth for you kind words. I know he is here with me in spirit he has been here to visit me. But I miss seeing his beautiful body. He had the most beautiful eyes and the way he would look at me. I do emangine the sun beeming off his golden fur in heaven like it did when he was here. He loved to lay in the sun by the pool. I dont know how he stood it but he liked it. He has touched my soul more then words can express. I am so glad that your baby is doing better. I hope the new year brings all of us much happier times. I will pray for you and your beautiful little girl. Cherish all the moments you have. My max was only here 7 years I thought he would be with me soooo much longer. He was just so healthly atleast I thought he was. Then bam he is gone. Gosh I miss him more everyday when I realize he isnt comming back. I just pray that I will see him again.

God bless you and yours
Anna

Hi Idgit

I am thinking of you, It is still snowing and cold I know you are in a warm place. Missing you as always

Mommy

HI Pretty Boy,

Just stop by this post to see your beautiful Face, and to watch the video that our dear Dottie sent. Sending you your head scratch and kisses before I go to bed.

Sweet dreams my angel
Mommy

Hi Preciuos just want to let you know mommy didn't forget about you today. The void in my heart and home is as strong as it was 4 weeks ago.

Luv You
Head scrates and kisses
Mommy

Hi Angel just sending you lots of luv and bunches of head scratches. Missing you so much

Luv You
Mommy

Just sitting here thinking and missing you very much. Its hard to believe its been 5 weeks since you had to leave me. It seems like yesterday and then at times it seems like forever since I saw your beautiful face. Well should I say since I could touch you, your face is always in my mind. I luv you very much and I know you know that.

Hugs and Kisses my precious boy
Mommy

My sweet Max I miss you very very much. You are here in mommy's heart and want to tell you I luv you soooo much.

Belly rub and head scratches
Mommy xoxoxoxo

Hi Sweet Baby,

Mommy is having a really bad night missing you, I cant stop crying and that feeling of guilt is just tearing me up inside. You were just to young to leave me and that me makes so sad that you didnt have a chance to grow old. You had a wonderful home and lots of love but I guess that wasnt enough to keep you healthly. I get so mad when I see other dogs left out in the cold and not taken care of and they are still here and you are not. I am sorry my baby boy but I am just so upset tonight. I havent even been able to post and encourage others who are feeling thier loss because I dont even know what to say anymore because it doesn't seem to get any easier for myself. I have 1 or 2 days where I think I am doing ok and then all these emotions just take over me. I just miss you so much that at times I just dont want to even go on but I know I dont have a choice. Your death has changed my life forever. Sending you bunches of love and kisses

Crying for you
Love Mommy

Dear Mommy-

I am sorry that you are having such a hard night. Something must have set you off, some memory, something you saw...whatever it was, I am honored that you loved me SO MUCH that you are still crying. At the same time, I want you to stop crying, because I am safe and happy where I am, and I want you to be safe and happy too!

Please don't feel any guilt about me. It was obviously my time, and I ENJOYED my time on earth because you loved me and gave me the best life ever. Please stop crying, but only when you are ready to, because I do know how rotten you feel.

I love you, mommy! You are the best

XXOO--Max

Dear Anna,
I do hope it wasn't our long'chat' that made you even sadder. I hope you are having a 'better' day. Are you 'snowed in' yet. We had more last night, and loads more to come.
Hope to see you on here again soon.
Love Jan and my Angels x

Thank you Margi and Jan. I have a constant reminder everyday because he isnt here anymore and I just miss him. It seems to just get harder the more days that go by and he isnt. The reality of it is really setting in now. I do nothing but think of him constantly. No matter what I do not to think about it nothing works this whole house every where I look I think of him. But I do appreciate your support it will be a looooong time before I except my loss. JJan it wasnt our talk the other night it felt good to be able to talk about him to someone who understands.

Genuine Lucky to have had him in my life
Anna

Thats right Anna, there's no way we would have changed that. We were so lucky that they were with us. Just such so sad that they can't be with us here for longer, but remember they are with us forever.

Hugs Jan x

Good night my precious boy its actually morning but I am going to bed now I luv you and miss you. I hope to have sweet dreams of us togther.

Sending you your head scratch
Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxox

Hi baby boy I am looking at your pictures and missing you very much. Mommy posted some of them on my FB for everyone to see how beautiful you are. I sure wish you were here with me. This house is just to quiet your brother Dozer never makes any noise unless someone comes up the driveway. Not you my angel you let mommy Know if there was a deer or any other creature in the yard. Sure miss all the activity and noise you were so keen when something was around the house. You were such a ham and I cant tell you enough how much I luv and miss you. I could search the world over and there would never be another you. Sending you your head scratches and kisses.

You are in my heart each and everyday
Love Mommy
xoxoxoxoxo

Mommy's Angel I am thinking about you, not that you dont know that. I just wanted to tell you good night and send you your head scratches and your kiss.

Missing you terribly
Mommy
xoxoxoxo

Hi my angel

Mommy had a better day today I havent cried today. I still feel very sad and depressed but have managed to get through so far without a tear.I love and miss you so much.

head scratches
mommy xoxox

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I love you
Mommy xoxoxo

Anna, so glad you had a better day. I can see you put it to good use with all the wonderful images you've created on here for us. Thankyou so much.
I love the Angel picture you have done on here for your darling Max.

Love and hugs

Jan and my Angels xx

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Hi My Angel
I am thinking of you and and miss your pretty little face. Mommy prays that you are happy and healthy and I cant wait until you are with me forever and ever. For right now I carry you in my heart and thoughts each and everyday. I have cried a river since you left.

Sending you lots of love and kisses
Mommy
xoxoxo

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I love you very much my angel
Mommy
xoxoxo