Missing Lexa Options

[janika]

Michelle, the photos of Lexa are beautiful, what a gorgeous kitty. I am thinking of you and sending hugs.

Jan and my Angels and Pixie x

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Tried some of my normal weekend actitives and all I could think about was Lexa. It hurt so much knowing she wasn't going to be there when I got home. Lexa made our house a home and its so big and empty without her.

[tahoeden]

Very pretty coloring and markings on Lexa...and really expressive eyes. I figure that it's almost two weeks for you now. I know that as time goes by it takes us farther away from the time when they were alive. The cycle of life, which includes death, can be cruel. After 6 weeks for me, I just took down Kota's pics and ashes and put them in another room. It got too hard to have her face staring at me all the time when out in the living room. I know there'll be a time when I can put them up again. It's too fresh and near for you. Like you said, the routine you had of your husband going to work and then you and Lexa napping some more...the routine has been taken away. Hopefully the memories will get you thru. Too Lexa!


dennis

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Thank you everyone for the comments on Lexa. I am so glad I found this site and have somewhere to discuss my feelings. I only wish none of us had to go through the pain of losing our babies.

Michelle

[moon_beam]

Hi, Michelle, it is hard going through the routines only to know that there's a HUGE part of those routines physically missing. It does seem like even the structure of our home - - be it an apartment, a single dwelling home, a hut, a tent, - - or whatever - - mourns the loss of the physical presence of our furkids. Scientific studies have shown that all living creatures have an "energy" that becomes a part of the "whole" of the home or group. When any of that "energy" is lost - - for whatever reason - - the remaining home or group members go through a re-structuring of the group. And when the energy is missing because of a death, that makes the re-structuring very painful - - both physically and emotionally.

Michelle, this adjustment time is a one day at a time journey, and this journey is sometimes so unpredictable. Each day seems to have its own agenda for awhile which leaves us feeling like we have little or no control over what happens or how we're feeling from one minute to the next. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Michelle, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Two weeks today my precious Lexa left this world. I wish I could be with her. Miss you so much baby. Daddy and Mommy are always thinking about you. We love you so much.

[tahoeden]

Two weeks is just a drop in the bucket. Thanks for writing your simple words of love to Lexa. It's refreshing, honest, sweet and very human to express so much with just the right amount of needed words. I know you both miss Lexa.

Dennis

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Going through the motions of life. The only thing I feel is the pain of losing Lexa. I love you baby.

[ladywolf]

Hi Michelle--

I just wanted to post to say hi and to tell you how very sorry I am about the loss of your beautiful Lexa. What a gorgeous, sweet face she had!

It's been just over three weeks since I lost my Ladywolf, and I am having a very hard day. I'm not conscious of it having to do with grieving over Lady, but on some deeper level, I think it does, as I've been feeling really lonely all day. Two weeks, three weeks, a month...is not very much time, not compared to the time we had them with us. And I know that in your case, the time got cut short, which doesn't seem fair!

Well, I just wanted to check in and offer my condolences too. (I haven't been posting much recently, so have missed some threads.) Take care of yourself, and be gentle on yourself--

Big Hugs from Margi and Spiritwolf

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Missing Lexa so much. This pain is unbearable...Just wanna be with my baby again. Life no longer has meaning. It is so strange to feel so numb and have such soul-wrenching pain at the same time. I just wanna scream.

[Baden]

Hi-
I know! I am right there with you...just trying to hang on for dear life. Its such a 'weird' state to be in-I am sad, angry, irritable and want to scream also. I screamed into a pillow once and it made me feel a bit better. I wonder if it would help. It is so hard to lose these babies that are so close to our hearts. Your kitty is beautiful! I cry multiple times a day. I think Lexa is looking down and admiring your beauty, strength and courage. Her love remains with you to eternity.

Amy

This lady has been helping me-she connects to pets on the other side. I wanted to share the info. I will post it on my other blog too.

http://www.keen.com/details/LuckySpoons/Li...estions/5329392

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Three weeks today. I miss the sweet little meow, the beautiful face and eyes and most of all the love you gave me. Thinking of and Loving you always sweet Lexa.

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

I can't beleive tomorrow will be 4 weeks since we lost our beautiful Lexa. Everyday it seems to get harder not better. I'm really mad that Lexa was taken away from us. I keep asking myself why her.... why now??? I know you all feel the same way about your wonderful babies. All I know is 2010 is a terrible year for me and I really hate cancer...lost my Daddy to cancer in May 2010 and my sweet baby Lexa to cancer in June 2010. Sorry for being so negative today but just really upset and depressed and missing my baby so much....no words can really describe the pain I am in.

Michelle

[tanbuck]

Michelle, it's ok to be negative sometimes. Tomorrow is 4 weeks since we lost our Buck. I understand where you are. 2009 and 2010 have been the hardest years of my life so far. I'm sorry about your father and Lexa. I know you're hurting. That's alot to take at once. I think it's normal that you're down in the dumps, although I'm sorry that you are.
I hope tomorrow will be a better day for you.
-Donna

[kurt_t]

Michelle, I just want you to know that I read this whole thread, and I can identify with everything you've written here. I feel like I'm just beginning now to take my first little baby steps out of my pain from losing my old cat Flo. I'm not sure if it was cancer or an immune system disorder or a combination of those things that took her away, but her death just felt so cruel to me, so horribly cruel and sad, I felt like I couldn't face another day of life in a world where such cruel things happen.

This forum has been a huge help to me. I hope it can help you too. You're not alone in your pain that's for sure. I think everyone here can sympathize with what you're going through. I know I can.

[heartsore]

Hi, Michelle
I am very sorry for the pain you are going through, I am relatively new to this site. I lost my buddy about one and a half week ago. I understand the pain you are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Linda

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Thanks everyone for the wonderful support I have recieved on this forum. I know everyone understands what I'm going through. I was so lucky to have Lexa in my life...I try to remember that when I get really depressed sometimes it helps. I just wish she was still here I miss her so much. Life just isn't complete without her.
Daddy and Mommy love you so much Lexa. Hope we will be together again someday...until that day we will keep you in our heart and thoughts always.

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

Yesterday was 5 weeks I just feel so lost without my baby. There are so many different feelings I have right now...sadness...gulit...anger. So depressed I know my life will never be the same. It is pure torture living everyday with Lexa not being here with me.
Lexa Mommy and Daddy love you sooooooooo much.

Michelle

[Axel&Lexa Mommy]

6 weeks today. The pain is so strong still from the death of my precious baby. Mommy and Daddy miss and love you so much.

[tahoeden]

Michelle,

6 weeks is nothing compared to the lifetime you spent with Lexa. It's so hard, that as the time goes by, we get farther away from the time when our loved one was alive and with us. After over two months, I still feel lost, like I'm a ghost just wandering among living humans. You said it quite succinctly, sincerely and affectionately, "Mommy and Daddy miss and love you so much". I know you do. Here's to Lexa, and the love she shared with you.

Dennis