My Sweet Princess Theresa Options

[Tom's Dad]

Dear LS friends,

It is with a heavy heart and deep sadness that I must tell you I had to help my baby girl Theresa transition to the Rainbow Bridge to be with Angel Tom. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. But Dr. Mills assured me I was doing the right thing. For those of you that may not have read about her illness, it is here:

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=7409 and her journey with us here: http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=6896

Dr. Mills said the tumor had pretty much consumed her entire tongue, that it would continue to grow and she would never get better or even stabilize. We had our final goodbyes in the room while Dr. Mills went to get what was needed. She did something that she had not done in weeks. She reached up with both paws to my chest to "hug" me and touch my nose. In her eyes I could see she was saying "It's OK daddy, I know it's my time" I told her she was going to be with Angel Tom now. Now she is Angel Theresa.

Se went peacefully and gently on the thick fleece blanket they provided. I have cried, but also tried to keep it together for her sake. The uncontrollable sobbing will come later I'm sure They will call me when her ashes are ready. I never got to do that for Tom or properly say goodbye to him.

I made a video of her just under 2 years ago enjoying the sunshine on the balcony. This is how I want to remember her. Here is the link because I unfortunately I don't know how to embed it.

https://youtu.be/QZglV7hanvM



Warm summer sun,
Shine kindly here,
Warm southern wind,
Blow softly here.
Green sod above,
Lie light, lie light.
Good night, dear heart,
Good night, good night.

Mark Twain at his daughter's funeral. I thought it appropriate for my baby girl.

Before the appointment she went out to the balcony all on her own and enjoyed the sunbeams for several minutes one last time. I'm sorry if this post seems a bit "ham handed" but I'm still in shock, and this is the first time I have ever had to make this kind of decision. Thank you all for reading.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Unfortunately there are no "easy answers" to the questions that arise in our hearts when we are grieving. You ask the universal questions that are a part of our responsibility as guardians of our beloved companions when it comes to the "hard choices: "Do you ever get past it? Or is it something we have to incorporate it into our being and try to reconcile it? To use another Trek reference, perhaps it's like when Kirk was split into 2 beings and the "good" half realized that without his "evil" half he couldn't make the hard choices."

Making the decision to assist our companions from this earthly realm is not meant to be an easy decision, my friend. But it is a decision that comes from the deepest and truest most unselfish love we have for them when we so desperately want them to continue to physically stay with us. We put THEIR needs first ahead of ours - - as Kirk used to say to Spock about being "human" - - "sometimes the needs of the one outweigh the needs of the many" - - or us as guardians of our beloved companion. So yes, from first hand experience I can tell you this experience of making the "hard choice" for your beloved princess Theresa you will eventually be able to reconcile it and find a peace in your heart when your heart can finally "catch up" with the knowledge in your mind that you KNOW you did the right thing for her. You will never "forget" this event, my friend - - but hopefully in time as you remember your beloved Theresa and recall those "final moments" you will be able to focus on her final gift of love to you in her physical body when she put her paws up to you and looked at you and clearly said to you "It's okay, Daddy - - it's my time." She loves you for this sacrifice you have made wanting to keep her physically with you for she is now restored to her former youthfulness in the company of Sir Thomas and all the other beloved companions who are in heaven's Perfect Garden. Both she and your beloved Sir Thomas are patiently waiting for your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. But for now, my friend, you, and your precious Tang, are honored to her sole, and soul, heirs to her eternal love. And now as with your beloved Sir Thomas, you will find a way to honor your beloved princess Theresa as you and your precious Tang continue your earthly journey.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam