My Sweet Princess Theresa Options

[Tom's Dad]

Dear LS friends,

It is with a heavy heart and deep sadness that I must tell you I had to help my baby girl Theresa transition to the Rainbow Bridge to be with Angel Tom. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. But Dr. Mills assured me I was doing the right thing. For those of you that may not have read about her illness, it is here:

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=7409 and her journey with us here: http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=6896

Dr. Mills said the tumor had pretty much consumed her entire tongue, that it would continue to grow and she would never get better or even stabilize. We had our final goodbyes in the room while Dr. Mills went to get what was needed. She did something that she had not done in weeks. She reached up with both paws to my chest to "hug" me and touch my nose. In her eyes I could see she was saying "It's OK daddy, I know it's my time" I told her she was going to be with Angel Tom now. Now she is Angel Theresa.

Se went peacefully and gently on the thick fleece blanket they provided. I have cried, but also tried to keep it together for her sake. The uncontrollable sobbing will come later I'm sure They will call me when her ashes are ready. I never got to do that for Tom or properly say goodbye to him.

I made a video of her just under 2 years ago enjoying the sunshine on the balcony. This is how I want to remember her. Here is the link because I unfortunately I don't know how to embed it.

https://youtu.be/QZglV7hanvM



Warm summer sun,
Shine kindly here,
Warm southern wind,
Blow softly here.
Green sod above,
Lie light, lie light.
Good night, dear heart,
Good night, good night.

Mark Twain at his daughter's funeral. I thought it appropriate for my baby girl.

Before the appointment she went out to the balcony all on her own and enjoyed the sunbeams for several minutes one last time. I'm sorry if this post seems a bit "ham handed" but I'm still in shock, and this is the first time I have ever had to make this kind of decision. Thank you all for reading.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Tracy, thought I would check in one more time before shutting down this technical whiz machine. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal deep grief - - insomnia, a "shutting down" of emotions, etc. Grief affects each of us differently, and certainly you are still in shock from everything your beloved princess Theresa and you went through in a short period of time from the moment you received the first news of her illness to yesterday's event of easing your beloved girl's transition home to the angels - - and now enduring the adjustment journey of her physical absence. Your inability to cry right now is NOT a reflection of you being a "bad dad" to your beloved girl. In NO WAY would your beloved Theresa ever think of you as being a "bad dad". And in NO WAY would any of us here think of you as being a "bad dad" to your beloved girl, or Tang, or your beloved Sir Thomas - - or ANY precious soul blessed to be in your care either in your home or in the community.

So please don't measure your grief by the amount of tears you cry, my friend. The ability, or inability, to cry is NOT a measure of the love bond you and your beloved princess Theresa share.

Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. And please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam