My Sweet Princess Theresa Options

[Tom's Dad]

Dear LS friends,

It is with a heavy heart and deep sadness that I must tell you I had to help my baby girl Theresa transition to the Rainbow Bridge to be with Angel Tom. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. But Dr. Mills assured me I was doing the right thing. For those of you that may not have read about her illness, it is here:

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=7409 and her journey with us here: http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=6896

Dr. Mills said the tumor had pretty much consumed her entire tongue, that it would continue to grow and she would never get better or even stabilize. We had our final goodbyes in the room while Dr. Mills went to get what was needed. She did something that she had not done in weeks. She reached up with both paws to my chest to "hug" me and touch my nose. In her eyes I could see she was saying "It's OK daddy, I know it's my time" I told her she was going to be with Angel Tom now. Now she is Angel Theresa.

Se went peacefully and gently on the thick fleece blanket they provided. I have cried, but also tried to keep it together for her sake. The uncontrollable sobbing will come later I'm sure They will call me when her ashes are ready. I never got to do that for Tom or properly say goodbye to him.

I made a video of her just under 2 years ago enjoying the sunshine on the balcony. This is how I want to remember her. Here is the link because I unfortunately I don't know how to embed it.

https://youtu.be/QZglV7hanvM



Warm summer sun,
Shine kindly here,
Warm southern wind,
Blow softly here.
Green sod above,
Lie light, lie light.
Good night, dear heart,
Good night, good night.

Mark Twain at his daughter's funeral. I thought it appropriate for my baby girl.

Before the appointment she went out to the balcony all on her own and enjoyed the sunbeams for several minutes one last time. I'm sorry if this post seems a bit "ham handed" but I'm still in shock, and this is the first time I have ever had to make this kind of decision. Thank you all for reading.

[Tom's Dad]

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you for checking in on us and your kind words of support. At about 9:15 this morning I had an odd feeling and was compelled to look at the clock on the wall. I realized it had been just about 24 hours since my baby girl went to be with Angel Tom

Last night I had what may have been my first "sign" from her. I was re-arranging my work pants and shirts I mostly hang to dry after laundry to get them to dry more evenly in the bedroom. No sooner had I walked out into the hall I heard a loud thump. I went back in to see plastic box containing yarn/string and other things for crafting on the floor opened. It had belonged to my then GF and has sat unmoved (by even a centimeter) on the top shelf of the closet since she left in 2004 Also sometimes, when it's very very quiet, I hear a high pitched meow that is/was unmistakably hers.

Tang has been even more affectionate (even for him) today cuddling more on the couch with me and kneading my chest. We are struggling toward our new normal. Thank goodness I am off tomorrow for the holiday. Thank you again for your thoughts and prayers. Blessings.

TT and TT