My Babygirl Alex Options

[Sog]

Where to begin. I am from South Africa. I adopted a beautiful Abbysinian from our reputable SPCA around 2.5 yrs ago. She is my sole-mate, my shadow and my companion. She is loving, kind, gentle and loyal. We formed a strong bond immediately and she is a very significant part of my life. She is now 4yrs old. She loves to follow me around, watch what I do, watch me cook and chase my shoe laces. When she is thirsty I have to turn the tap on for her. Only the freshest water will do for my princess. About a week ago she stopped all her usual behaviour and became a little bit withdrawn. I put it down to the heat wave we are experiencing. On Monday she didn't want to move and lay about the house, so I took her to our vet Tuesday. They confirmed my worst fears: Feline Leukemia and cancer of the kidney (renal failure). They gave her an antibiotic and sent her home to me with a ton of pills. They said that I don't have long. I am shattered, heartbroken. This lively little cat is slowly dying in front of me. I give her the best food now (when she feels like eating) and make sure she is comfortable. But it is still killing me slowly. Today I noticed her eating a little less and lying around a lot more. Her fur is still soft and beautiful and she is drinking lots of water. I am struggling to come to term with this sentence hanging around our necks. She looks at me with her big green eyes and I can see sadness for the first time. I tell her I am with her and will keep her safe but I think she nows that the game is up. I love this cat so much and it is tearing me apart to watch her start to fade away.

I know that when the time comes I will do what is best for her. Her pride and dignity will be kept intact and I will make sure of that. This is very bitter-sweet and I am dreading the final whistle. She is a fighter and has always been one but I think this is her last innings. I cry everyday when I hold her ahd try to spend as much time as my schedule allows. This is the worst I have ever been and I don't want her to die.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Sog, please permit me to try to offer you my sincerest support and comfort as you and your precious Alex share your journey in what is called Anticipatory Grief. As I read your beautiful earthly journey with your precious Alex my heart shares your deep sorrow in knowing now that your earthly journey is very limited. There is nothing more painful to the heart than knowing there is nothing more we can do for our companions but to make their final hours, days, weeks, as comfortable as possible - - and to make the final decision to ease their journey home to the angels when they begin suffering.

We live by a standard "where there's life there's hope" and during the Anticipatory Grief journey we are torn between the realities that our precious companion's physical bodies are not designed for immortality on this side of eternity, yet we cannot help but hope and pray for some type of miracle that will restore good health to them so that we can continue to share their sweet physical presence. It is journey that is a horror roller coaster all of it's own.

The good news in the midst of all this pain is that you and your precious Alex are having this time to share your treasured memories together and to comfort and reassure one another that the physical separation that is before you now is only temporary. Although your precious Alex is preceding you to the angels, one day at your appropriate time you will join her in eternal joy.

It is important for you to know you are not alone in your and your precious Alex's journey, Sog. Each of us here do understand the deep sorrow that is in your heart, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you so very much for sharing your precious Alex with us, Sog. Perhaps sometime you would like to share a picture(s) of her with us, but only when / if you want to. Please know you and your precious Alex are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you and your precious girl are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam