I Never Got To Say Goodbye..., I lost my dog after only 3 years. Options

[heardfam]

We lost our dog Wed. night unexpectedly. She has had an ongoing battle with Addison's disease, but it's been under control for at least a year. She was showing no signs of any crisis and ate fine that day. She even played for most of the day. At around 9:30 that night she looked a little confused when I called her...almost like she didn't know who was calling her. At 10:30 my husband heard something and saw Diggers convulsing and then she fell over and became unresponsive. I rushed her to the emergency vet but she had already died in my arms by the time we got her there. She went so fast. I talked to my vet and he said that she may have had a blood clot that caused a stroke or hear attack.

She was only 3 years old. She was a great dog and I can't get over this happening. I never got to say goodbye to her. I can't stop feeling guilty. I feel bad because she had really wanted to go with us for a ride and we left the dogs here instead. I feel bad because for the past year she hasdn't gotten the attention she wanted because we had a new baby who is extremely needy. We did get her a friend to play with and for the past two years they have been best friends. I'm not sure how my other dog is going to take this. I think she thinks she is coming back. I am really, really angry right now. I am having a hard time functioning. I know I need to snap out of this for my family's sake but it feels like I have lost another child.

How long am I going to feel like this? What can I do in the meantime to help me through?

Jaimie, Sasha, and angel Digweed

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