Three Months Ago Today, I still miss Dixie just as much as day one. Options

[Kristina]

Thank you moonbeam for stopping in. I hope you and Noah are well.

I love Downton sooooo much. The other day I was looking at some photos online from a radio station in the UK. They were on the set while season 3 was filming and I was trying to figure out from the photos what was going on. I saw Matthew in what looked like wedding attire- so maybe Matthew and Lady Mary will finally get married! I also think Lady Edith will get married, I read that there were to be two weddings this season. I wonder if she will marry Sir Anthony? And I wonder if Lord Grantham will come to terms better with Lady Sibyl and Branson. And of course the best couple in the world. Anna and John Bates!! I am dying to know what happens with Mr. Bates and the murder trial.

Aj thinks I am nuts because I talk about these people like they are real. I am completely obsessed.

Dixie's birthday is Monday, and I am feeling so sad about it.

Lily and Macy are doing good. They are loving the early Spring weather we have been having.

I still don't know what is going on with Georgia. Aj says he doesn't really want to go, so we are going back and forth with his parents about it.

Now we are off to a St. Patrick's Day party. And I have nothing green to wear!

[Kristina]

Well today is her birthday. She would have been 11 years old today. I am so sad that she is not here to have cake and presents. I have been looking at photos of her birthday last year all day. I wish more than anything that she could be here. It does get easier, but the heartache never goes away. Nor do the tears.

I celebrated a bit too much on St Patrick's Day by drinking an entire bottle of Patron. I am not a drinker at all, maybe once a year, and even then I don't drink much. I got it in my head that I was celebrating Dixie's birthday a few days early, and the goose really got loose!

There isn't much else to say. I miss her.

[LoveMyMickey]

Belated Happy Birthday to you, Angel Dixie. I heard through the Angel-vine that you, Mickey, and all your friends had quite a party with heavenly cake and ice cream.

Dixie, you better get the word out to mommy to not overdo the celebration with spirits.

Much love to you sweet Dixie!

LoveMyMickey

[moon_beam]

Hi, Kristina, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your and your beloved Dixie's angel-versary birthday. I hope you know that your beloved Dixie was sharing it with you from her heavenly home. Although she is surrounded with perfect happiness there is a piece of her heart that is also missing - - for she gave it to you. And although she does not feel the piercing sadness that we still do as we continue with our earthly journey, her joy will not be complete until you both are reunited in eternal joy at your appropriate time.

For now, Kristina, hold tenaciously onto the many treasured memories you and your beloved Dixie shared during your earthly journey together, and know that she continues to be a part of you and all that you do - - for she is forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is being kind to you, Kristina, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Dixie's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Kristina]

Wow it has been a bit since I have been in here. Things have been a bit hectic in the Johnson household, and I haven't had much internet time.

My dad passed away on Friday April 13th. It was sudden and not expected, and my sister and I actually had to make the decision to take him off of life support. He held on til I got there, and then he crashed. My godfather was telling me a story that I had forgotten about. I was two weeks early when I was born, and my dad was in Michigan at my godparents wedding. My mom went into labor, and I waited for him to get home before I made my appearance in the world. When Aj and I got to the hospital in Michigan his stats were still good, and he was breathing on his own in addition to the life support. A few hours after we got there was when he crashed. My godfather said he waited for me just like I waited for him. That definitely gives me some comfort. I am amazed that I have not had any kind of meltdown, but I think it is because I have been so busy that I just don't have time to really think about it. I have a feeling that once we have his service I will lose my mind. We had him cremated and he is going to be buried at Fort Custer, a national cemetery in Michigan. He was Navy so he gets a full military service, and we don't have to pay a dime for it. My sister and I each got a small heart shaped urn so we can have some of his remains, and bury the rest. We are still working on dates for his service, but it will be fairly soon. We were planning on waiting til around Memorial day, but I don't want to open the wound up a month from now you know? I think it will be better to do it sooner rather than later.

So that has been whats going on here. We got back from Michigan early Tuesday, and I spent all of yesterday making all the calls I needed to make to social security and places like that. Today and tomorrow is devoted to checking in with family members. We are still waiting for his obituary to be posted. He lived in Muskegon, MI and it is a pretty small town so they are a bit slow with things sometimes.

I hope everyone is well, and I'll update as I can.

[Kristina]

I forgot to add, I also told him while he was in the hospital to stop and pick up Dixie when he got there, and to watch her for me until I got there to be with them. I know he would get a kick out of that.

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Kristina,

I am so sorry you and your sister lost your Dad so suddenly. That is a heartwarming story about your Dad and you waiting for each other. Sometimes deep grief doesn't hit right away, but much later and very hard.

That sounds like a very nice national cemetery in MI. I also want to thank your Dad for his military service helping to keep our country free.
Kristina, take good care of yourself and your sister. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all your family.....God Bless...

Also I'm sure he and Dixie will have a grand old time in Heaven waiting for you.

((((HUGS))))

LoveMyMickey

[Kristina]

I think you are right about the deep grief hitting later LoveMyMickey. Honestly at this point I just feel numb. I guess every situation is different. When Dixie passed I was a mess before she was even gone, and stayed that way for quite some time. I was thinking about it last night and numb is the best way I can think of to describe it. Like I know my Dad is gone, but it just hasn't fully hit me yet.

I think he would be very pleased with the place we picked. I am hoping the funeral director will call me back today so I can get going on these arrangements. I called him yesterday and he never returned my call. As a result of that I have been up all night cause I am so pissed off.

Now to get going with morning things around here. I am sure the animals want their breakfast.