2 Weeks, too many Options

[susanka1113]

It's been 2 weeks (plus one day) since I had to say goodbye to my Kona dog. I posted a memorial, hoping that it would help ease the pain today, but it hasn't. I'm afraid to say that I feel almost as bad as the day I had her euthanized. I don't know what to do. Nothing seems to ease the pain. I was hoping that a little time would help. I know that 2 weeks isn't that long, but it seems like an eternity to feel this bad. I miss her so much. I didn't realize that my whole routine revolved around her and her happiness. Now that she's gone I'm lost.

I have a reputation at work for being the clown and making people laugh. Nobody knows how to interact with me now that I can't be happy or funny. I wish I could be, but right now I don't feel like I'll ever be that person again.

Well meaning people have offered me other dogs, but I just can't bear the thought. I don't feel like I can ever risk loving again like I loved Kona. It hurts too much to have it taken away.

Don't know what else to say, just had to rant.

Susan