I Put My Best Friend To Rest Yesterday Options

[SharonL]

A picture of my Pal Ebony

Hi ,

I am so happy to have found this forum! Yesterday (12-6-04) we had to put our dear sweet ##er spaniel Ebony to sleep. Ebony was a 12 year old female black ##er spaniel. We found Eb in a garbage can behind a 7-Eleven 11 years ago. Ebony had bladder and kidney cancer and in the last month her tumor grew and grew like nothing I have ever seen in my 33 years. Sunday night was like any other night she was happy go lucky a little tired she had taken to sleeping much more than usual. At about 10 PM she fell and cried out in pain, I carried her to her bed and new something had changed, and the time had arrived, you see I promised Eb when she got sick, as soon as I knew she was in pain and couldn't bear the pain, I would taker the pain away and make it mine. I would make the toughtest decision of my life and put her down. That night I slept on the floor with my best friend and my husband would come and lay with us too. My 3 year old was fast asleep. My husband and I both knew if we were to stay true to the promise I made her, this would be our last night with our beloved pal. My poor sweet girl couldn't stand and couldn't get to the bathroom, she had a sad look in her eyes, and I believe she knew that her time had come. I believe that her mind, heart and spirit did not fail her just a cancer stricken body that couldn't keep up with her. At noon on Monday mornning I took my friend on our last road trip to the vet and had her pain ended.

My only problem is that I can't stop crying, I keep looking for her in all her usual spots, I keep hearing her. My daughter is crying occasionally my other ##er Daisy is looking for her. I am so sad, sad to the core of my being, angry because I feel like I needed more time with her, more time to love her, more time to pet her soft coat, more time. I MISS MY FRIEND! Whenever I would cry my baby would jump up on my lap and lick the tears off my face and wag her tail til I smiled, and now I don't have her to dry this imense puddle of tears. Thank you all for listening to me.

Hugs Sharon

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