Lost In Fog Options

[Daryl]

*****HI EVERYONE............ANOTHER POST THAT I WANTED TO BRING BACK FOR ALL THE NEWCOMERS..Love, Denise xo****


Hi friends,

I'm very sorry that I haven't been offering much support in here lately. I read the messages, feel everyone's pain and loss, and the words just don't come out from me.

I wonder if I've hit emotional burnout?

I go through the day as though I'm picking at my plate. At work, I try to write the latest report I have due, but only manage a sentence or two before my concentration evaporates. Before long, I find myself surfing the Internet, visiting favorite forums, looking for distraction. This is NOT good -- my employer monitors our computer activities and knows how much time we spend online! But part of me just doesn't care. I'm tired of being responsible. I'm tired of having to try to plod through a normal daily life while dealing with grief after grief. It's been going on for 6 years -- too long! My wife's cancer, Smokey's death, then Kela's, then Lilly's, now Kirby's. Of our two remaining cats, Summer (17 yrs old) still needs fluids and meds every other day, and now that the weather's getting colder the arthritis in his back seems to be bothering him more.

It's like a marathon that never stops. All the while, daily life goes on --we're in the middle of multiple critical product tests at work, and I hardly have any vacation time even if I COULD take it now. On top of that, most people don't even comprehend the grief of losing a pet! "Oh, that's too bad. Well, you'll get another one soon, won't you?" "I'm sorry about your dog. Do you think you'll have that report done today?"

I start to get better for a while, I'll have maybe an hour's worth of truly productive time, and then all the wind goes out of my sails again.

Sorry to whine. Everyone on this board is hurting, after all -- you don't need to hear my sniveling. But how long am I going to feel stuck in this fogged-in I-don't-care-about-anything state? Others here must be going through this, too? What do you do to snap out of it?


-- Daryl

This post has been edited by Muffins: Dec 18 2004, 05:32 PM