Losing My Dog In A Few Weeks, Degenerative Neuropathy - She'll be euthanized soon Options

[Candy's Dad]

You people are all so amazing. Thank you so much.

I'm leaving work right now to spend my last 25 hours with her (until we see each other again on the other side). I spent all last night crying, vomiting and dry-heaving from anxiety, and I'm sure there's more of that to come. I'd be stunned if she isn't in either mine or my wife's arms for the entirety of that time.

Then the doctor will come. Then she'll be gone. Then we'll have to drive her to the crematorium. Dear God, how is anyone strong enough to do that?

Once again, thanks so much to all of you. I know you've been through what I'm going through and you are such wonderful people to take the time to help. Please accept my prayers and condolences for your losses.

I probably won't check in for a while. Please know that I will always be grateful to each one of you, and I truly feel terrible for the pains of your lost loved ones.

Dear Gizmo,

I just caught up with this thread and I'm so sorry about your impending loss. I was in a similar situation back in April when my Candy was diagnosed with Lymphoma. That's when the countdown started for me. Then on June 20th we had to put her down, though I original planned for the 18th, but opted to wait till that following Saturday. Unfortunately she started go under on Friday so it was hard having to make that decision, so believe me, I know exactly what you are going through.

My partner was the strong one, at least as far as showing emotion outwardly. I tend to wear my heart on a sleeve and even though it's been a month, I still will get tearied eyed on the train when I look a pictures of Candy on my phone or Ipod.

Hang in there, and just give Giz as much hugz and kisses as possible and take alot of pictures. I managed to take alot of pics and phone video before she passed and it's helpful.

Again, I'm so deeply sorry.

Candy's Dad

Hal

[Victoria]

I'm so sorry for your impeding loss. It just rips you heart out. I loss my best friend J-dog and am about to lose number two. Life will never be the same but it will still be life. You will get through. The hurt you feel just shows the depth of love we have for our dogs. What a blessing your dog had by having a great family like you. My prayer are with you and your wife.
Victoria

[Steph]

Oh I'm so sorry that you guys have reached the end. It's so devastating. I have lost two in the past four years, one from sudden death due to heart failure, one due to a long drawn out battle with several bad afflictions. Both deaths seemed to totally gut me. It's as though part of you dies right along with them.

Yes, life goes on, but something does get lost.

Thinking of you and your Gizmo.

[Mink&WillowsMom]

Take pictures of her. I found my last pictures incredibly precious afterwards. And I even took shots of her after she was gone. In those moments of wild disbelief and denial, they would calm me, bring me back to dull, sad acceptance. And it also was so obvious that my precious girl wasn't in her body anymore, which comforted me when it began to rain on her grave. And, since the laws of physics are clear that energy cannot be destroyed; it only changes form, I am so clear that her spirit energy must be intact somewhere else, because it sure wasn't in her body anymore.

Breathe.
During panic, breathe into a small paper bag. (stabilizes your blood gases, brings your panic down)
Drink lots of water.

I am so very deeply sorry.
Kim
Call me crazy, but I have this persistent image of a little energetic puppy jumping up and down, wriggling with how good she feels. Just like how your girl will be feeling tomorrow.

[Mink&WillowsMom]

As I look at my clock, I see it is past the time of Gizmo's release. Thinking of you, holding you in light. `~Kim

[sissycat]

Yes,
Just as Kim said. We are thinking of you!!!!
I can just picture Gizmo running free at the Rainbow Bridge. No cares, no worries, no pain.

Sending hugs and prayers to you and your angel Gizmo.

Hugs to you both!!

[LoveThem]

Sending you lots of hugs

and sharing your tears...................

[gillian]

Big hugs to you and to Gizmo.

Post photos of your beautiful dog. x

[Gizmo]

Hey everyone,

I apologize for not checking in recently. I really needed some time to deal with all of this. To update, she's gone. We had her euthanized on the 15th and we miss her so much. My wife and I both know that we did the right thing but it is still very hard to deal with.

We're getting better. We're both trying to stay as busy as possible and that has helped. It's very difficult whenever we have spare time, though. Last night we were both kind of just sitting around and we both started crying uncontrollably. Those types of things don't happen too often (thank God), but when they do it is crippling.

Here are some pictures of her. These were taken on her last weekend. She loved to eat and she loved steak about more than anything, so we got her a giant porterhouse as a 'going away' present. She was so happy.



I love this one - she looks so proud of her steak.




We made the mistake of getting the steak too close to her here. She's absolutely going for the kill hehe.





This is her after she finished eating. She looks so exhausted and content!


Dear God, I miss her.

[sissycat]

Wow that steak looked bigger than her!!!
I bet you do miss her. We will all miss them forever. But know she is still with you. Maybe not physically but spiritually.
Glad you came back to let us know how you are doing.


Many Many Hugs to you!!!!!!!!!!!

[Omarmommy]

We wanted to get Omar a nice steak too...but didn't have time. I'm thinking he wouldn't have been able to eat it though. His eating was poor then. But he was getting chicken and brown rice...he was so anxious for it, but then didn't eat much of it. He was going to starve.

I'm so sorry for your loss and how hard it is still. I lost Omar on the 6th. He was 14. Even though he was old...and in poor health, I was not ready for him to leave me. I still have my days where I just have to cry. It feels like forever he's been gone though.

Take care.
Marcie

[Ken Albin]

I have just been catching up with posts and I read your story. Gizmo is a beautiful furkid and you must miss her terribly.

One thing I have learned from this forum is that there is much sorrow here. At the same time this site is a celebration of the lives of our loved ones. It is wonderful that there is a place people can go to talk with others in a similar situation. Many out there simply don't understand and don't care. One litmus test I have for friendship is that they care enough about my feelings when I lose a furkid to try to console or comfort me. It speaks volumes for humanity that 99% of the comfort I received was from this group. Oh well, you take it where you can get it.

As others have said, Gizmo will always be with you. I am glad that you are adjusting to the loss. I think we eventually realize that we have to adjust. There simply is no other choice. Some take years to do this and others take a few weeks. One thing for us to always remember in the midst of our sadness is that it really isn't about us but about our furkids. The loss we feel is for our beloved ones who have gone on. When we realize that a part of them is still with us it does make the recovery a little easier. Some people expect a complete healing with no residual problems or emotional conflicts. I have found it to be more like when a person loses a leg and they learn to adjust to life without it. Things will never be the same for us. You just do the best you can with what is left and cherish the memories.

Take care,
Ken Albin

[Steph]

Aww - she was so cute! I'm so sorry for your loss.

I know what you mean about keeping busy. I've gone into a frenetic busy mode here lately. It's been over a month for me, but I still can't handle just being still. I've always got the TV blaring, or some kind of distraction going full-tilt. I guess this will all ease in time.

[ann]

Aww - she was so cute! I'm so sorry for your loss.

I know what you mean about keeping busy. I've gone into a frenetic busy mode here lately. It's been over a month for me, but I still can't handle just being still. I've always got the TV blaring, or some kind of distraction going full-tilt. I guess this will all ease in time.

What great pictures of Gizmo. Thanks for sharing. And what a wonderful idea to give her steak!. Like Ken said we all heal differently. I wish you both the speedist of recoveries. Hugs.. Ann