This Is Too Hard, Moose, gone 1 month Options

[Moose Mom]

For the last three days I couldn't get out of bed. I'm just too sad. Yesterday, Monday, Moose was gone four weeks, but Thanksgiving is a month from the 23rd to the 23rd. I miss him so much. I don't want it to be Thanksgiving. Why didn't any of my family try to help? I have to somehow get a dinner together and I just can't care. I get mad at my family but I don't want to be with people who didn't love and care for him. Thank all the gods I have a huband who loved him lots and cares.

In his 10 years we never left him for more than 12 hours, we were so scared if we weren't with him he wouldn't make it. How can he be gone from us now for a month?

I want to talk with the people here, but can't. I cry so much I can't even read what is being said. I was doing better and did some talking last week, it did help. I hate that I have sane days and crazy days...the last few days have been so crazy. I keep saying I'm sick but I think I'm really just crazy. Dang I know Moose wouldn't want me to grieve so much I make myself sick, but I can't seem to stop it.

My poor Autumn kitty tries so hard to help me. She has been cuddling and playing so cute. She is 6 months older than Moose was, and I'm so happy to have her and so sad I'm stressing her out so much.

I tried all weekend to get it together and go get a new kitten, I'm sure it will help, I just couldn't do it. Well I got up a little, I'm going back to bed, maybe for a month. I've read your stories and I'm so sad for all of you.

I love you so much Moustache. Why did you want to leave us?
Mommy