Losing Scout, Denial Options

[Cherylk]

I had to make the decision to put my beloved cat, Scout to sleep on Monday. Her kidneys shut down.
I did not recognize... well I noticed that she lost weight. I thought feeding her the soft food that she loved would help. Now I know that she was the one that was filling the cat box with urine...I have 2 other furbabies as well. To make a long painful story short, she was suffering with this and I was in complete denial. She would only find comfort in my lap...sometimes I was too overwhelmed, stressed or maybe selfish to always respond to her needs...I feel horrible about this. I look back on the last 3 weeks and wonder why I didn t recognize that my poor sweet girl was so sick . I was in denial. Last Thursday I rushed home from work at 10:30 am when it really became all too clear. Scout is really sick and I need to take her to the vet NOW. She was in critical condition . All i know is that I keep playing that film in my mind of her - so sweet and loving even when she felt so bad. I had her 11 years and will miss my Scout always. Her "mate" Max is looking for her in his way. It breaks my heart....

[affighter571]

Bless your heart! I so feel your pain. Our sweet little dog Toby was hit by a car late yesterday afternoon and his brother George that we have looks all over the place for him. My daughter told me just awhile ago that when George went out to potty he went and laid on Toby's grave and she had to pick him up and bring him in the house, and then he just laid around. (Which is not like him he is very hyper.) They have not been separated since the day they were born. (Jan. 22, 2006). Except when they were separated due to parvo, but they really didn't care then they felt so bad. I have cried all day today at work, but I know it is going to get better, we just have to hang in there.

[Jakey Boy's Mom]

I am so sorry. It hurts to make that final decision, I know. It will probably haunt us for a long time. But we can't get mired down in guilt over the decision or our actions before. It's hard to give our pets our undivided attention all the time. Don't beat yourself up over signs you thought you missed or things you think you didn't do.

[Cherylk]

Thank you for your kind words. The members of this forum are truly kind and compassionate. I am glad I found this site at this time of sorrow. Thank you to the person who started this site.