My Handsome Boy Cosby, How will I know when to let go? Options

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Hello Friends,

I took my cat Cosby to the vet this Tuesday because I thought he looked too skinny. I thought he would give me some advice on how to change his diet. Well, he gave me more info than I bargained for. He felt two masses inside his stomach. He did xrays and bloodwork to confirm. We decided to have an ultrasound on Thursday. They allowed me to come in the back and view the sonogram. There were two large black masses on the monitor. Cosby just sat there like a good boy while they rubbed the machine over his tummy. The vet said it's lymphoma and has attatched to the kidneys. I thought I was going to passout when they told me. Tears poured from my eyes. Cosby is 16 years old. My parents gave him to me when I was 8 years old, I am almost 25. We have been through thick and thin together. It's so hard to think about life without him. Today is Sunday and I have seen a rapid progression of the disease. His appetite was good up until today. I am hand feeding him baby food. He has been hiding in the closet for most of the day. He is getting weak. I just hate seeing him disintegrate each day. I feel totally helpless.

Nicole