My Beloved Noah Options

[moon_beam]

At 1:52 a.m. I received a call from Noah's overnight physician from the ER hospital. A "quick" ultrasound was done on Noah at some point after I left visiting him, and fluid was found in his abdomen. A sample of the fluid was taken which showed definite bacteria - - which means something in my precious Noah's abdomen was perforated or leaking. This is always considered a surgical emergency, which I approved.

At 2:20 a.m. the surgeon called me to let me know that there was nothing she could do for my precious Noah. His stomach had ruptured from multiple tumors and there was nothing but dead tissue in place of his stomach. The only thing that could be done for him was to mercifully transition him from this earthly realm. She agreed that she could keep Noah comfortable under anesthesia until I arrived to be with him when the drugs were administered. I arrived at the hospital around 3:20 a.m., and around 3:30 a.m. Noah joined his beautiful sibling baby sister Abbygayle and adopted big kitty brother Eli in heaven's perfect garden.

Needless to say my heart is aching right now and the tears are flowing, but there are so many things I am thankful for - - one of them having had the honor and privilege of being his human caregiver all the 14 years of his sweet physical life. I will get a pawprint and his ashes back sometime within the next week.

I want to thank each of you for your comforting support during this time of great sorrow,

Peace and blessings,
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[moon_beam]

Hi, Jan, thank you so much for your comforting support. I am so grateful for all the years I had with my beloved Noah. It's a hard reality to adjust to when our companion's earthly journey ends. Yesterday I took the cushion and blanket out of his stroller and sobbed holding it tightly to me remembering how he always sought the comfort of his stroller when he was in the vet's office. He would even climb into it here at home when he wanted some "private" time. When he was so ill I was so worried that maybe somehow he got into something toxic here at home despite my preventive precautions - - or ate a bug or got bitten by a spider that was poisonous to him. But it was cancer that took his life from me, as it has taken each of my companions, and strange as this may sound this is some comfort to me -- that it was something I had no control over, it was something I couldn't prevent. But this still doesn't stop my heart from breaking, it doesn't stop the deep pain of grieving for the selfish wish that I still want him here with me so that I can hold HIM in my arms instead of his stroller cushion and blanket.

Thank you again, Jan, for sharing my grief journey, and I know your beloved angels are with my beloved Noah acquainting him with everything to do and see in heaven's perfect garden.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam