My Little Girl Is Gone... Options

[Desi]

After nearly 20 years my little Quaker parrot Lady Macbeth was my littlest daughter. We raced an hour and a half to get her to a hospital at midnight Saturday when I realized she was wheezing. I cannot believe I did not realize she was ill. I heard an odd sound 3 days ago but she seemed happy and healthy, playing peekaboo and whistling her songs. I let them take her back to put in an oxygen chamber and in less than 5 minutes I was told she was gone! I can't stop the what-if tape, and how oh how does one deal with so much hurt? I am absolutely devastated and wracked with guilt. 5 hours is just not enough time to say goodbye forever! So much guilt, so much pain. What to do? I just feel so lost....

[Lulusmom]

Hi Desi,
I am very sorry for the loss of Lady Macbeth. Please know that you are not alone and we are here for you.

Lulusmom

[Desi]

Hi Desi,
I am very sorry for the loss of Lady Macbeth. Please know that you are not alone and we are here for you.

Lulusmom

Thank you both so much for your words of support. I am still having such a hard time, with many tears. I call it a success if I can get through the workday without falling apart until I get home. Bellow you will see my little Lady - she was always full of kisses for everyone she met. She also loved doing cage calisthenics, as you can see. At 6 weeks old she was a little lover, and that never changed in 17+ years.
Thank you so much for being here, and caring.