Trevor's Mom Has Gone Home, They're together again - forever Options

[Gretta's Mom]

Dear friends who loved Trevor and his mom (and that seems like half the world - they were miraculous souls)

Trevor's mom joined him in the Perfect World on April 9. They are now reunited, never to be parted again. If it's not too inappropriate, here is a poem I wrote to her. If it is, and the site admin takes this post down, I'll understand and repost.

Little Sister, where are you?
Little Sister, so very tiny – every drop of blood exchanged for life (a total blood replacement at birth)
Little Sister, so very little – of the curly blonde hair and sharp teeth (she bit HARD as a toddler)
Little Sister – screaming in the night no one could wake you up (nightmares from brain effects of the blood transfusion)
Little Sister – I look around for your spirit but I don’t see it, I don’t feel it.
Little Sister – Are you gone forever? Will I never feel your spirit like I felt the spirits of Rufus and Gretta? (my two dogs)
Little Sister – I am here to be with you as we had always planned, but you are gone. Now every city looks the same, the same without you.
Little Sister – You are my heart, you are half of everything I am.
Little Sister – Dreamer dreams lonely dreams and Kelly walks in circles looking for you. I do my best to love them – but they know. (her two dogs)
Little Sister – Maybe I will have to leave your house in order for your spirit to find me.
Little Sister – In the end I could not help you, I could not save you. I am so sorry.
Little Sister – Did you take a part of my heart with you? Does it hurt so much that I can’t feel it?
Little Sister – Did you leave a part of your heart with me? I hope so. Oh how I hope so. Oh how I miss you. Oh how I love you.
Little Sister, little star. How do I know which one you are?

Gretta and rufus's mom

[Gretta's Mom]

Dear, dear Bobbie,

Once more tears are the heart of my life. Tears of loneliness. Tears of missing you. Tears of missing my two darling dogs, Gretta and Rufus. Tears of FRUSTRATION at your husband - who - from all indications - has again taken up with the witch lady we took so much time, tears and effort to get ride of. I don't know this for sure but Nuyen called me last night and said that she had come to his house and by 9:30 hadn't left yet. It's partly my fault because I asked Nuyen to call me if she saw the witch's car at your house. Of course I texted Stan twice and called him once but he never answered.

I am trying SO hard to put this into the hands of God and lean on Him to work it out. My new friend, Pinky Holmes, wife of Sherman Holmes, the last surviving member of the Holmes Brothers group, said "You can lead a fool to knowledge but you can't make him drink."

God is teaching me to put problems into His hands and LEAVE THEM THERE as the old song says. If it weren't for the dogs and the expense, I would move back to Minnesota.

I am so glad you are with Daddy in heaven. And with all the dogs you mothered, and all the other animals you loved and helped. And now, the beautiful lion Cecil has come to join the party. Please go meet him and pet his beautiful black mane and tell him how much I love him and how sorry I am that a stupid rich man thought he had the right to pay $50,000 to kill this beautiful animal. Humans are a sorry lot. No wonder we love animals so much.

Please ask the Good Shepherd to look down kindly on me. I am feeling the need for His help more each day.

I love you, Bobbie, and I will every day until we are together again.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Gretta and Rufus's Mom

P.S. Would you give each of them a head pat and tummy rub for me and tell them I love them more each day and that I am counting the days until I see them again.