Not For Me, But For My Hannah, It Hurts When Hardly Anyone Replies Options

[BabyHannahsMom]

I posted a tribute to my beautiful little girl Hannah who has been gone nine months and one day now. I got two private messages from two of my friends here and a response from Ann. Not many people have even looked at Hannah's tribute.

I know I haven't been replying a lot lately to many of your posts; however, I have in the past. I have been a member here now since April and have been a very active member and have really tried to help. I come here as often as I can because I really do care and really want to help, but as you all know, sometimes it becomes overwhelming and we have to take a break. So, I have done that from time to time, to keep my sanity, to try to break out of the deep depression I experienced for so long.

I don't know if that is why so few of you have read my tribute to Hannah or not. It really hurts me that only 20 something people have even looked at my post. If not for me, but for my girl and to acknowledge that she was a very important little girl, that her life to ya'll too, and that her story is worth at least a short response. And my story too, and my feelings. I still have no one really who I can talk to about Hannah, and I just wish I did. When that fact isn't even acknowledged here, it hurts. It hurts a lot to know that only some of you even looked to see what I had posted.

It feels like nobody cares about me or Hannah. I basically stopped "crying" aloud to anyone quite some time ago because it seems nobody listens or wants to listen. It makes me feel like I haven't been much help and that nobody is interested in what I have to say. Even several of you that I considered to be good friends, not one word have I heard from you since Christmas. It just makes me so sad. I'd rather not say anything anymore at all than to be ignored. I guess I have offended some of you in some way. If I have, I apologize.

I loved my little girl Hannah, and I miss her so very much. Even though it has been nine months now, the pain is still very much with me, the need to talk about her and to have someone listen is very important to me. The world is not a very nice place without her and now to be ignored on this board as if we don't even matter, is more than I can take. It just hurts too much. I am sorry.

[CheriAnn]

Dear Marcia,

I am SO sorry that you have been hurt
I know that none of us meant to hurt your feelings. As someone stated, most of us tend to go into the Death and Dying forum the most. I have been checking the other forums, but admit I was checking my own post in the Sickness area for responses to my posting about Brandy. I have been consumed with her this week, and I am so sorry!!!!!!

I do realize how much a reply means. I admit to that when I say I was checking for replies about my Brandy's surgery. So I can imagine how crushed you felt. I have glanced quickly at alot of postings, but didn't stop to reply to all of them. I have read it, and it is simply beautiful! You always find the most intense poetry to go along with your tributes to your precious Hannah. I'm sure you must know how much you and Hannah are loved by us all

PLEASE forgive me Marcia! I know I would have gotten to a reply eventually. However, that doesn't mean as much as it does when you first post it.

Love,
Cheri