Not For Me, But For My Hannah, It Hurts When Hardly Anyone Replies Options

[BabyHannahsMom]

I posted a tribute to my beautiful little girl Hannah who has been gone nine months and one day now. I got two private messages from two of my friends here and a response from Ann. Not many people have even looked at Hannah's tribute.

I know I haven't been replying a lot lately to many of your posts; however, I have in the past. I have been a member here now since April and have been a very active member and have really tried to help. I come here as often as I can because I really do care and really want to help, but as you all know, sometimes it becomes overwhelming and we have to take a break. So, I have done that from time to time, to keep my sanity, to try to break out of the deep depression I experienced for so long.

I don't know if that is why so few of you have read my tribute to Hannah or not. It really hurts me that only 20 something people have even looked at my post. If not for me, but for my girl and to acknowledge that she was a very important little girl, that her life to ya'll too, and that her story is worth at least a short response. And my story too, and my feelings. I still have no one really who I can talk to about Hannah, and I just wish I did. When that fact isn't even acknowledged here, it hurts. It hurts a lot to know that only some of you even looked to see what I had posted.

It feels like nobody cares about me or Hannah. I basically stopped "crying" aloud to anyone quite some time ago because it seems nobody listens or wants to listen. It makes me feel like I haven't been much help and that nobody is interested in what I have to say. Even several of you that I considered to be good friends, not one word have I heard from you since Christmas. It just makes me so sad. I'd rather not say anything anymore at all than to be ignored. I guess I have offended some of you in some way. If I have, I apologize.

I loved my little girl Hannah, and I miss her so very much. Even though it has been nine months now, the pain is still very much with me, the need to talk about her and to have someone listen is very important to me. The world is not a very nice place without her and now to be ignored on this board as if we don't even matter, is more than I can take. It just hurts too much. I am sorry.

[Ann H]

Dear Marcia,
I am so sorry that your feelings are hurt and mine would be too if hardly anyone responded to my post about my darling Snookie. I told my husband that you would surely be hurt that no one let you know they thought about your beautiful girl and acknowledged that you are still in pain over your sweet little Hannah.

You were one of the first to reply to me on my very first post and you have been a big help to me, more than you might even know. I think about you all the time and I promise I will always remember your little Hannah Anna and all she meant to you. I have come to love her as my own from all you have said about her.

Marcia, please don't go away we do need you and perhaps this will let people know and open their eyes that even a simple I'm sorry, or I'm thinking about you, or just something small would help with the pain and let people know we do care. I hate to see you so hurt and I don't know why people didn't post to you.

We can't say we don't know what to say because we have all had our lives altered by losing our babies. We all know how much it hurts to have them gone from our lives and the longing we have for them to be in our arms.

We all want to find and hear words of comfort or we would not be here posting about our broken and bruised hearts for our dear babies. We all may not know each other in person but we all need to pull together and show compassion for those who suffer the same loss we do and cry the same kind of tears. We have all suffered long lonely nights where the tears just wont quit and we have all felt so barren, sad and insecure we have all needed an embrace from someone who has been there. Please do not go away I need you and so do we all.
Love, Ann