Trevor's Mom Has Gone Home, They're together again - forever Options

[Gretta's Mom]

Dear friends who loved Trevor and his mom (and that seems like half the world - they were miraculous souls)

Trevor's mom joined him in the Perfect World on April 9. They are now reunited, never to be parted again. If it's not too inappropriate, here is a poem I wrote to her. If it is, and the site admin takes this post down, I'll understand and repost.

Little Sister, where are you?
Little Sister, so very tiny – every drop of blood exchanged for life (a total blood replacement at birth)
Little Sister, so very little – of the curly blonde hair and sharp teeth (she bit HARD as a toddler)
Little Sister – screaming in the night no one could wake you up (nightmares from brain effects of the blood transfusion)
Little Sister – I look around for your spirit but I don’t see it, I don’t feel it.
Little Sister – Are you gone forever? Will I never feel your spirit like I felt the spirits of Rufus and Gretta? (my two dogs)
Little Sister – I am here to be with you as we had always planned, but you are gone. Now every city looks the same, the same without you.
Little Sister – You are my heart, you are half of everything I am.
Little Sister – Dreamer dreams lonely dreams and Kelly walks in circles looking for you. I do my best to love them – but they know. (her two dogs)
Little Sister – Maybe I will have to leave your house in order for your spirit to find me.
Little Sister – In the end I could not help you, I could not save you. I am so sorry.
Little Sister – Did you take a part of my heart with you? Does it hurt so much that I can’t feel it?
Little Sister – Did you leave a part of your heart with me? I hope so. Oh how I hope so. Oh how I miss you. Oh how I love you.
Little Sister, little star. How do I know which one you are?

Gretta and rufus's mom

[Gretta's Mom]

Good morning, my dearest Bobbie

This is the coldest, windiest, snowiest day I've ever seen in Baltimore. And the spirit of goodness has been wearing off on Mark. This morning he snowblew ALL of our sidewalks. I don't know his phone number but I am going to go over there and thank him personally. It's BRUTAL outside.

There is so much happening and all of it is sad so I won't remind you of it by writing about it. The two points of bright lights are you two beautiful, warm, waggy-tailed doggies. Dreamer lives up to his name every minute of every day. If it weren't for Dreamboat I would be at Shepherd-Pratt for sure. Kelly is my big buddy now and he reminds me every day how kindness, patience and love can overcome even the most broken and sealed off heart. Right now the two of them are sleeping, one on the sofa and one on the loveseat - the very picture of contentment. (Even though Kelly did keep me up until 3:30 AM with his wanting to go outside (mostly to eat snow). Of course to limit the snow eating, I had to trot along side him in the worst weather possible.

My best friend and sister, there is so much I want to say to you, but just cannot bring myself to write it, especially here on a public forum. But you are in heaven with all of your dogs and birds and people, so you know more about it than I do. Just know that I consider myself the most blessed person on earth for having had you for a sister for six decades. I look forward to being together with you and daddy and all our dogs and all the people we knew, whether in person or via Lightning-Strike.

I love every star because it might be you.

Gretta and Rufus's mom