Almost 20 Years Options

[oñat]

My beloved Taño (pronounced: TAHN-yo) passed away June 1, 2012.

He is my heart and kindred spirit.

His brother, Quito and I miss him and are shocked in each moment of his absence.

My tears come without warning at all hours of the day and night.

Regret, guilt, sorrow, sadness, pure and utter grief: all these emotions consume me and repeatedly twist me in all directions throughout each day. As time passes and the shock wears off and reality sets in... the pain is subtly getting more intense, more consuming...

I will miss him waking me by any means necessary for breakfast.

I will miss his beautiful brown-ness. I plan to only wear brown or black for weeks and weeks and months...

I will miss his constant desire to be near me. I will miss waking with him under my arm...

My life for almost 20 years has been full of sweet love, laughter, and lots of cuddling.

I am blessed to have been chosen by him to be his constant companion.

[Bobbie]

Hello Onat!

Checking in today to see how you and Quito are doing. Each day is a series of baby steps, some going forward and some going backward. Some even keep you in the same spot. Just keep reminding yourself, that you and Tano have only physically parted (which I know is incredibly difficult and painful), but that your two Spirits are still linked together as they always were. It's just in this life, we humans tend to concentrate mostly on the physical stuff (petting, talking to our loves, playing together, etc.) and "forget" that important Spirit realm which, after all, is what lasts for eternity.

You and Quito and Tano are in my thoughts and prayers always. When you are ready, I would love to hear more about Tano. I am not really a "cat person", but I do babysit for many of my friends' cats and they are so much fun! (especially with tissue paper) I am a person who needs to have doggies around me. I would still like to "meet" Tano and Quito.

But, for now, as my sister offered, take hold of our strength and use what you need. We have been-there-done-that ourselves recently and now we are here for YOU!

Blessings.....................
XObobbieXO