Almost 20 Years Options

[oñat]

My beloved Taño (pronounced: TAHN-yo) passed away June 1, 2012.

He is my heart and kindred spirit.

His brother, Quito and I miss him and are shocked in each moment of his absence.

My tears come without warning at all hours of the day and night.

Regret, guilt, sorrow, sadness, pure and utter grief: all these emotions consume me and repeatedly twist me in all directions throughout each day. As time passes and the shock wears off and reality sets in... the pain is subtly getting more intense, more consuming...

I will miss him waking me by any means necessary for breakfast.

I will miss his beautiful brown-ness. I plan to only wear brown or black for weeks and weeks and months...

I will miss his constant desire to be near me. I will miss waking with him under my arm...

My life for almost 20 years has been full of sweet love, laughter, and lots of cuddling.

I am blessed to have been chosen by him to be his constant companion.

[Gretta's Mom]

OH Onat

What a beautiful creature IS Senor Tanyo. Please accept my most deep condolences on his passing into the Perfect World. Although he seems gone, he's really not. His kind and sweet spirit lives on, and he is now living in a place from which he came and found you - the perfect World - where he is meeting all the other sweet creatures from God's creation and where you will join him one day. You're is the shattered heart period. Your only "task" is to do whatever you have to do to bear the pain. Cry, scream, pound pillows, curl up into a ball -- anything legal! Although it doesn't seem like it now, this time WILL pass. Then you'll be where most of the rest of your Lightning Strike brothers and sisters are - in the brick on the heart period. I think that time may last forever - no - until we join our "loved ones" in their world.

I'm on my way to work right now. I[ll write more tonight.

Have the most restful day you can.

Gretta's mom