Almost 20 Years Options

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My beloved Taño (pronounced: TAHN-yo) passed away June 1, 2012.

He is my heart and kindred spirit.

His brother, Quito and I miss him and are shocked in each moment of his absence.

My tears come without warning at all hours of the day and night.

Regret, guilt, sorrow, sadness, pure and utter grief: all these emotions consume me and repeatedly twist me in all directions throughout each day. As time passes and the shock wears off and reality sets in... the pain is subtly getting more intense, more consuming...

I will miss him waking me by any means necessary for breakfast.

I will miss his beautiful brown-ness. I plan to only wear brown or black for weeks and weeks and months...

I will miss his constant desire to be near me. I will miss waking with him under my arm...

My life for almost 20 years has been full of sweet love, laughter, and lots of cuddling.

I am blessed to have been chosen by him to be his constant companion.