Three Months Ago Today, I still miss Dixie just as much as day one. Options

[Kristina]

Today seems to be an appropriate day to start a memorial thread for my Dixie. It has been three months since we lost her, and my life will never be the same. I miss her every second of every day. The ache in my heart refuses to go away. On the outside I seem like I am fine and going on with my life, but on the inside I am a mess.

Dixie,

Mama loves you so much. I cannot believe it has been three months since I saw your face. Our whole family mourned you. Macy had a very hard time adjusting to life without you. She spent so much time looking everywhere for you. Dad misses you very much, but he doesn't show it like Mom does. The memorial service the doggy funeral home put on was very nice. I hope you liked it. I know you do not want me to be sad, but it is so hard not to be. You gave me 10 fantastic years, and to go from having you here to you being gone is a very hard transition for me to make. I hope you like how I set your cremains up, with your collar and other things on the shelf with them.

I am glad that you sent Lily to us. Sometimes looking at her makes me sad though, because she looks so much like you. I know you sent me that sign the day we got her. You always did what mom asked of you, even in your death.

I miss you breathing heavy in my face when you had to go outside, and never moving out of the way of the toilet when someone had to go to the bathroom. I miss our time when I would get down on the floor with you and you would throw yourself back in to my lap and lick me like crazy.

I know you are watching over your Dad and I. I like to think you are laying in the living room at night, when Lily suddenly stands up on the bed and starts staring and barking at something that I cannot see. I know you know that I miss you, but I hope you are having fun playing until Mom and Dad can be with you again. Macy will be there before us, and when she does eventually get there the two of you can play all day while you wait for us.

I love you puppy. I can't wait to see you again.

All my love
Mom

[Kristina]

Hi moonbeam

Thank you for checking in. I really hope I can get to the point where I can come here to offer support to others. Sometimes it is just so hard to read all the stories of loss. To know that others are hurting just as much as I am.

My new job is working for Amazon! I actually get to work from home which to me is the greatest thing ever. Yesterday was my orientation and picking up equipment day, and from now on I just walk two feet, sit down, and go to work! From everything I heard and saw yesterday I think I am really going to love this job. They seem like an incredible company to work for. I am so very blessed to have gotten this lucky in landing this job. And to think I passed it up several times before I applied, thinking it was a scam or too good to be true. They told us yesterday that over 1,500 people applied, and they hired less than 100. And it's permanent, full time work with so many advancement opportunities.

I had to quit going to school for a bit, but I am ok with it. Aj didn't want me to quit, but we need to get our debt under control, and I would really love to have a house eventually. I again feel very lucky that I was able to land a job so quickly in this economy. I haven't worked for over 2 years since I have been in school, so I figured it would take me a very long time to get hired somewhere. I applied back in mid September and they contacted me a day late. I did a pre employment test, had two interviews and filled out a form for my background check all within a week. Then I didn't hear from them for just over two weeks so I figured they didn't want to hire me. A few days later I had been in the shower, and I got out and checked my phone and they had called to offer me the job! I was so excited! I was actually supposed to start last Friday but the Monday of that same week I had another surgery so I talked to them to see what they wanted to do and they said just to push my start date back by a week as not to run the risk of hurting myself. Again a really great company.

And on that note I have 2 dogs looking at me to take them outside. I hope you are well my friend.