I Just Want To Be With My Trevor Options

[Bobbie]

Oh my, I just want to still be with my Trevor. I miss him as much today (almost two weeks after he died) as I did the moment he left this earth. I really don't care where this place would be, I just don't want him back here on earth with his suffering and pain. I just want to hold my soft, precious boy, touch his wonderful little feet, rub the bridge of his hose with my fingers, soak in the amazing sight of this dog who came into my life and made it so wonderful.
I cry every day, many times a day. I feel so badly for the few times I got frustrated with his constant peeing or whatever. I tried not to get frustrated often, and I didn't, but I feel so sorry for those times that I did.
I want to be with my Trevor, now and forever. I am so alone, lonely, quiet and sad, sad, sad without my hunky bunky near me. Trevor, I miss you with all that I am, all that I will be and all that I have been. I know this must make you feel sad, too, and I really don't want that at all. I just don't know what to do when this feeling comes rushing through my heart and I would give everything I have to be with you again. I know I could have done more for and with you and I didn't take advantage of all the time we did have. Oh, how I wish I had it now. I love you, Trevor. I just plain adore you, even now that you are on a different plane than I am.
And it is almost impossible to be slowly picking up your pads and blankets. Every time I do, I feel that I am betraying you and giving you a signal that I am putting you a bit farther back in my thoughts and my heart. That is absolutely not, nor ever will, be true. You and I were and are a team, like no other. I feel, no I wish that I felt, that we have become one, now, with your soul intertwined with mine. Maybe it has and that is one reason I feel so badly and miss you so, so much.
I miss you, my Trevor Forever "a fella you can trust", my one of a kind, my boy. Please forgive me for crying so much. I'll get better, I promise. For now, my dear, sweet angel, I give you my love, my heart, my thoughts and my loyalty. Just like you gave to me, every single day.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

[raerae777]

Bobbie,

That is not weird at all! After we put Cinder down, all of us (mom, dad, and boyfriend) combed the whole house and truck gathering Cinder's hair and putting it in a ziploc bag. I keep it in one of my drawers and take it out to feel and smell her hair sometimes. I'm so grateful my family did this for me without thinking I was crazy. I still find her hair around the house sometimes. I go lay on her doggy bed with my face in it inhaling sometimes and that makes me feel a little crazy, but oh well it makes me feel better. So, no, you're not crazy and it's not creepy, but perfectly normal (at least to me)! As long as you feel close to your Trevor, it doesn't matter.

I hope you have a wonderful week. Always thinking of you and sweet Trevor.

Much love.

Cinder's Mama