I Just Want To Be With My Trevor Options

[Bobbie]

Oh my, I just want to still be with my Trevor. I miss him as much today (almost two weeks after he died) as I did the moment he left this earth. I really don't care where this place would be, I just don't want him back here on earth with his suffering and pain. I just want to hold my soft, precious boy, touch his wonderful little feet, rub the bridge of his hose with my fingers, soak in the amazing sight of this dog who came into my life and made it so wonderful.
I cry every day, many times a day. I feel so badly for the few times I got frustrated with his constant peeing or whatever. I tried not to get frustrated often, and I didn't, but I feel so sorry for those times that I did.
I want to be with my Trevor, now and forever. I am so alone, lonely, quiet and sad, sad, sad without my hunky bunky near me. Trevor, I miss you with all that I am, all that I will be and all that I have been. I know this must make you feel sad, too, and I really don't want that at all. I just don't know what to do when this feeling comes rushing through my heart and I would give everything I have to be with you again. I know I could have done more for and with you and I didn't take advantage of all the time we did have. Oh, how I wish I had it now. I love you, Trevor. I just plain adore you, even now that you are on a different plane than I am.
And it is almost impossible to be slowly picking up your pads and blankets. Every time I do, I feel that I am betraying you and giving you a signal that I am putting you a bit farther back in my thoughts and my heart. That is absolutely not, nor ever will, be true. You and I were and are a team, like no other. I feel, no I wish that I felt, that we have become one, now, with your soul intertwined with mine. Maybe it has and that is one reason I feel so badly and miss you so, so much.
I miss you, my Trevor Forever "a fella you can trust", my one of a kind, my boy. Please forgive me for crying so much. I'll get better, I promise. For now, my dear, sweet angel, I give you my love, my heart, my thoughts and my loyalty. Just like you gave to me, every single day.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I have been struggling to know what to say for I feel the depth of your grief. I am so very sorry that the beanie babies were scattered. Unfortunately there are some folks who have little respect for resting places, which is one of the many reasons why leaving momentoes are discouraged by the owners and caretakers of cemeteries. I'm glad you were able to find more beanie babies to replace the one that is missing, and hope that you will not have to endure this invasion of your beloved Trevor's resting place again. Does the cemetery permit little fences to be placed around individual resting places? If so, this may help to discourage any further disturbances.

I totally agree with Terri about our precious furkids wanting us to go about the daily routines as normally as possible. This is comforting to them. They know they are the center of our universe - - always and forever - - because love is eternal and is not bound by the physical laws of time and space - - both during their earthly journey with us as well as when they precede us to the angels. So please let your heart be at peace, Bobbie -- you never neglected your precious Trevor during his earthly journey.

Bobbie, I truly wish there were an easier way through this grief journey, and if there were I would most certainly share it with you and each of our friends on this forum. Unfortunately it can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, - - enduring through the most painful experience we will know on this side of eternity. We are here for you, Bobbie, through every step of your journey. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and am here with you and beside you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam