My Dearest Kajoor, After 7 years you died in my arms Options

[kajoorsmom]

My KJ and me:
Dear kajoor.
everyday is easier and harder at the same time. i can't believe you're really gone. i want to write some cute stories about you, but everything about us was mundane. we did everything together. for a while you even decided that my bathroom was the best place for your litter box and refused to go anywhere else. bathing you, sleeping next to you, cuddling you, nuzzling under your chin, breathing in unison, feeding you, letting you walk me, and hugging you were among the most precious gifts you gave me. thank you so much for giving me the privilege to be your mom. i miss your sneezes...but you have forever changed me for the better. i wish i could've saved you, but you did not want to go to the vet again, so you made your own choice. thank you for not making me euthanize you. thank you for dying in my arms...in the same position from when i first held you--a 6 wk old little munchkin with silly whiskers and huge bulging eyes. you were so brave and rambunctious from the start. and the fact that you thought you owned the place only made me love you more--you did own it, along with my heart. kajoor, just know that i loved you more than my life, and will forever keep your lessons deep in my soul. i love you!
love,
your mom, rachu

[kajoorsmom]

Hi everyone,
Happy New Year. 7 months without you KJ and I still think I see your infinitely cute face asking for food. I am grateful that I had those last moments with you, but not a day goes by where I don't wish I could cuddle and kiss you. But you feel so close, so I will not complain. I wanted to write, but being back home after 3 months of travel made it a bit painful to revisit the fact that your soft warm fuzziness is not greeting me....well, first being angry that I was gone for so long and then eventually relenting and cuddling like crazy. You were always happy when I came back after more than a few days. I love you.

I have many more pictures of Kajoor, I'm working on retrieving them. It's still hard to look at, but I will do it soon.