My Beautiful Baby Options

[Kristinak]

Last night, my baby was put to sleep....she died happy, eating from a bowl of treats before she just went asleep. She was a 14 1/2 year old Labrador Retriever. She had severe arthritis, she was taking multiple doses of codeine a day to keep the pain down. The past few months she could hardly walk, could hardly get up (she couldn't at all if she was lying down on a linoleum floor), and she could only stand for about a minute, because it was too hard for her....we had to carry her out to the backyard for her to do her business, because she couldn't walk there herself...and it was hard for her to control her bowel movements, so usually she would start doing her business while we were taking her down the stairs outside.... and the past month and a half she just stopped wagging her tail. I saw her wag it slightly maybe twice, since. And she was such a happy dog.

I miss her so much....I love her so much.... I had her since she was a puppy, and I have been through so much with her. and what hurts is that I even feel guilt, like did I do the right thing by putting her down.... is this normal? please.... please help me...I don't know what to do and how to cope with this.

[Kristinak]

I do thank you all for your kind words... but I can't do this.... this whole day I have been crying...and if I do something to distract me, like watch TV, I'll be fine for 20 minutes but then I'll just burst into tears thinking about my baby....and I'm experiencing anger...and then guilt...and then horrible horrible sadness....I'll stop being angry for a minute and burst into tears again... and I don't know what to do because I'm supposed to be going on "vacation" tomorrow with a friend...how can it be a vacation? And I'm so worried because in 2 weeks I'm moving out of the country, I'm supposed to be studying abroad...and I can't, I just can't, I just want to stay in my room and cry for a month....and I'm so worried because I can't do that....Life has to go on and I just don't feel like I can go on with it

I just feel like I didn't do the right thing....I wish she was here with me.... I'm crying right now and I can't stop