Feels Like He Was Never Here Options

[My heart Cooper]

Today was 8 weeks since we lost Coop. 56 days have gone by since I've touched and kissed him. I keep trying to picture him and the things he did but sometimes it feels like he was never even here. Five years went by so quickly that it seems like it was just a flash in time that didn't really happen. I hate the feeling.

[Baden]

Hi-
I was thinking about you and your situation. Its so hard because life has a way of delivering what it wants to, despite us not being ready for it. This incident was simply out of your control. It was not your fault. You did the absolute best for your Cooper and he knows that. I know you didnt spend enough time with him, but nor did I with my 15 yr old lab. Its so hard looking back wishing that you could have done something different. Before my Baden left I was involved in some serious drama that was consuming all of my time and energy. I got so worked up over it, and then suddenly he became sick. I was still with him everyday and giving him love, yet I wish I did more. I think that is the nature of our hearts-we always wish we did more. I feel guilty about not giving him 150% of my energy. So, even though he was older and lived a good life, I think we all experience the torment, the pain and the guilt. I am not one to point fingers and I have not read every single post so excuse me if this question was already answered, but have you thought of filing a lawsuit? I am a medical professional myself and I find it inexcusable what happened. You put your dog in the hands of a 'professional.' I know it was an 'accident', but accidents with anesthesia are fatal and its NOT okay. I worked with an anesthesiologist and he was telling me the dangers of it, especially with animals as there is not a specific anesthesiologist on duty as there are with people. I dont know where you are at with all that and if it would help, but just wanted to let you know that I understand what you are going through and the anger and pain that you must feel.

All I can say is there must be a greater plan from above. I have to think that things happen for a reason, as horrible as this experience is. Cooper is in a good place and you shared so much love while here and at the end of the day, love rules all. Credit should be given to the good, kind and caring Mom that you are!
Take Care...
Thinking of You..
Amy