Niles Is Gone, I've lost another baby Options

[tanbuck]

Dear friends, my baby left this morning at about 5:45. He didn't make it until the vet got here. It wasn't as peaceful as I had prayed but he's resting now. I'm in that numb place at this moment. I'll write more later. Thank you all for your prayers last night.
-Donna

[moon_beam]

Dear Donna, oh, dear lady, what a horrible day this has been for you. As I was reading your post I felt tears well up in my eyes with the memories of what I did with my Samson's things. I took his food to the shelter, and thought I was okay doing it, but as I parked the car at the shelter and started to take the food to the door I started crying, and when the animal control officer opened the door I was in full gut wrenching sobbing. I managed to say the word "food" and he took the bag out of my hands, and I just turned and went back to my car and drove off - - sobbing all the way home.

I have a lot of of Oslo's things upstairs just patiently waiting to go to the shelter. I just haven't been able to bring myself to do that yet.

Yes, my friend, this grief journey can lull you into thinking that the worst is passed, and then - - whamo - - everything comes flooding back and sometimes it feels worse than what you were feeling earlier in the grief journey. I am so glad you wrote to us to share with us what happened. It is times like these when we wonder if there will be any peace again at all in our hearts from the grief of loss.

Even though it hurts really bad right now, I hope that you will know that Niles is proud of you for sharing his things with other little furkids who can benefit from them. It was very hard for me to take some of my babies' things into the vet - - Eli's, Oslo's, and Abbygayle's - - so that they could be used for "Good Samaritan" donations, but I'm glad that I did that.

Donna, I hope you will take time now to give yourself a chance to rest and recover from the day's events. And I hope as you sleep tonight that you will have more pleasant dreams. Please know you are close in my thoughts and prayers, Donna, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam