Niles Is Gone, I've lost another baby Options

[tanbuck]

Dear friends, my baby left this morning at about 5:45. He didn't make it until the vet got here. It wasn't as peaceful as I had prayed but he's resting now. I'm in that numb place at this moment. I'll write more later. Thank you all for your prayers last night.
-Donna

[ladywolf]

Dear Donna--

I totally understand your feelings about giving away Nile's stuff. How painful for you. I'm sure it seemed like a good idea beforehand, but I'm not surprised that you broke down. We need to pace ourselves when it comes to thing like this, but we don't always know what the right pace is until we've done something and then fallen completely to pieces. I look at Ladywolf's futon, which is a full-sized one folded over on my bedroom floor, and wonder how long I will hold on to it after she has passed. It takes up a huge amount of space--but it is her bed, and Poppers slept there too, and I can't imagine just throwing it away (it's too grimy to recycle.)

I'm having a hard time right now too. I used to be able to leave Lady, who is dying of sarcoma, with one of two friends, but she can't manage the stairs at one place and the slippery floor at the other, so now she is confined to hanging around my house, and I will either have to leave her alone here when I'm working, or haul her around with me in the car, and it's starting to get hot in southern Arizona. This is a hard time--so many "liberties" and pleasures are disappearing for us.

Again, I am sorry you are having such a hard day. We seem to go along kind of okay for awhile, and then we get thrown badly when we aren't expecting it. Don't blame yourself at all--what you are feeling today is perfectly natural, painful as it is.

Big hugs from Margi and Ladywolf