Breaking Down, here,there and everywhere Options

[Pamela]

The breakdowns I have are sure not as intense as the begining, but none the less as time moves on I find My Moose's hair on different places, dinner time is hard because everyone had a place they sat, Moose and Gato right in front of the coffee table, a bite for me a bite for you and you. Not to many times I've eaten dinner lately without crying, just putting the leftovers in the garbage is sad. It has been 6wks today Moose left this world, this site has helped me grieve. After my parents died I kept so busy, I did'nt grieve to the deepest extent like I have lately, it came out 3yrs later with panic attacks, sweats, my doctor had told me I was going through post stress from losing my parents and changing to a new city so fast, I thought I was doing okay but I really wasnt. This time I still fight it (the acceptance) but I cry alot more, I still have more grief to pour out of my soul. I miss my boy so much, he was my greatest joy, my life. Pamela

[Steph]

Even as I sit here in the middle of intensly crying and missing my girl, I can tell you that it does get better.

I completely understand how you feel. I too, have surpressed grief after having lost close loved ones. I too, have suffered the panic attacks years later. And, like you, I let the grief run out when my furbaby died.

You are not alone.