Rafer Options

[Idajean]

It is two weeks today that Rafer is gone from my life. I went to my son's home over Easter. I visited with my grandkids and son and daughter but all the while I still felt guilty leaving our home and Rafer's memory behind. I cried a lot at night, and I was sad during the day but managed to hold it together. My daughter-in-law gave me a beautiful sterling silver disc with a dog running. She had Rafer's name engraved on the back. I thought that was so kind of her. I can wear it close to my heart always. I have started crying again this morning. Today I pick up his ashes. I JUST WANT HIM BACK WHOLE AND BEAUTIFUL AGAIN. I want my Rafer. Will I ever get over this horrible lonliness? Everything I do that was done when he was with me brings me to tears. He followed me everywhere. I always felt protected and loved with him. When I would garden his would lay near me. If I was pulling weeds he would grab the clumps of grass or whatever and toss them around. It was so funny. I think he thought he was helping. He gave me such joy, from the time I brought him home at 11 pounds to his big grown-up self at 101 pounds. I was lucky to have had him in my life, but I still wish he were here. Rafer's mom forever.

[janika]

Dear Idajean

I am thinking of you and sending hugs. I felt a bit better when we brought my darling Noushka's ashes back home, a sort of feeling of relief that she was back, but yes if only we could have them back whole and beautiful again, so that we could give them a great big cuddle. They are of course whole and beautiful and well again , with no pain or suffering and we must be thankful for that. I can just picture all our Angels playing together at the Rainbow Bridge, thats what gets me through this dreadful grief, that and the wonderful memories I have of all my Angels.
The little silver disc with Rafers name engraved on it is a lovely idea. I love that you say you can wear it close to your heart as thats where your darling Rafer will always be , in your heart and soul.

Love and hugs

Jan and my Angels and Pixie