Niles Is Gone, I've lost another baby Options

[tanbuck]

Dear friends, my baby left this morning at about 5:45. He didn't make it until the vet got here. It wasn't as peaceful as I had prayed but he's resting now. I'm in that numb place at this moment. I'll write more later. Thank you all for your prayers last night.
-Donna

[Flossie's Mom]

Donna,

I can so relate to your feelings.... exactly how I felt when I hung on too long for my cat. I thought she was doing OK.... couldn't seem to take her in when she seemed to hold her own. For a long time I wished she had not waited for me to get home one night from work. She was under my bed struggling for breath & too weak to come out but tried so hard to drag herself out when she saw me peeking under the bed.

I lost her on the way to her vet & she died 1 block away. Like you, it seemed those cries, screams & struggling lasted FOREVER! So I do understand your feeling like you failed Niles..... I wish I could tell you your feelings will end soon but everyone takes the time necessary. I took a very long time because I felt so guilty.

Easy to say not to beat yourself up but I sure did. All I can say is TRY not to do that. Know you did the best you could, loved him very much. Gave him a good life & did all medically that you were able to. Maybe Niles & Baby went the way they were destined to go and we just feel it was our fault. I only know I vowed not to let it happen that way ever again for any of my furkids & though it was extremely difficult to do I took Flossie in when I am sure we could have struggled on longer.

So maybe that was my lesson and her not so pretty passing prevented others from the struggle that she had. She and Flossie both were not dealt a good hand in life but they survived to 15 & 17 because of the extra I was able to do for them while they were here and lived much longer than if I had not been in the right place at the right time. Both taught me lots about life & love so there is another lesson learned for me. Painfull as both losses were maybe it was the way it was supposed to be.

I know you'll grieve and struggle with your experience with Niles' passing but you were such a good Mom and you will pull out of this in whatever your own time is meant to be. I truly feel your pain during this time.....

************HUGS************