Max, Just a little poem from my heart Options

[smokey/lady/max]

MAX

As I sit hear and cry
I question myself and ask God why

The pain is so real
That I pray for time to make it heal

I lay in bed at night
Just trying to convience myself what I did was right

I talked to you as if you are here
Just because I love you so, Max my dear

I miss playing the in and out game
My precious Max the house isnt the same

As the day and nights seem longer
My love and missing you just gets stronger

You touched my life that words cant express
I guess that is why I stay so depressed

As I stare at your empty bed
Oh the visions of you in it in my head

Max Please patiently wait for me
Until my time is up and my eyes no longer see

You where mommy,s protector and my rock
So me feeling this way shouldn't be a shock

So sleep in peace my little boy
You where and are my pride and joy

LUV YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH
Your Mommy FOREVER

12/2/2009 Will be a day I will never forget

[janika]

Thanks Anna

I hope you can manage some sleep. Some nights are getting better for me now. I have a photo on my bedside table, of Tasha and Noushka together. One of many that I have in my bedroom. I kiss their dear faces in that photo each night before I turn off the light, then I close my eyes while the image of them seems to be imprinted . I plainly see them, and it sort of makes me feel so warm and comforted. I can then manage to fall asleep. Usually only for a couple of hours though. I seem to wake so early every morning , thats when the sad realisation sets in again, that there's no darling girl to lick me and fuss me and talk to me, -yes sammies are very vocal dogs and they do seem to talk, def can say something like 'I love you' in a 'wer wer wu' sort of way.So I usually get up between 3 and 4 am. Look out at where their little graves are in the garden, which as you say, now looks as if they're covered in a thick blanket of snow. Always hoping to see their paw prints.
I then come on here and there's usually a message from one or other of our dear new friends. It really is comforting , isn't it, to know that such dear and caring people are thinking of us.

I hope that tonight you can manage some sleep, and that you have lovely dreams of your darling Max.

Thinking of you. God bless.
Love and hugs
Jan
xx