I Lost My Friend, Now She's Alone. Options

[george]

A few months ago I lost my Bun-Bun, and I went threw all the grief and the turmoil of loosing my pet but I learned to deal with the pain and the guilt of having to see her slip away from my life.
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !

[openhearted87]

I'm sorry for your loss.i feel the same way when you say it's hard for others to understand the grief of a lost pet. you arent hanging on too much. everyone has their own pace in grief. dont let someone try and rush you. you arent rediculous. you did the best for your bun bun by letting her move on. im sure bun bun knows your decision was from the heart and it was to relieve her of pain. it was a selfless act of kindness you did for bun bun and she must love you for it. ive had to make that hard decision as well for my kitty acorn in the summer. you might have regretted it if you didnt put bun bun down and she suffered. there really is no winning in a sad situation as the passing of a loved pet. my heart goes out to you and your angel bun bun

-corina and her angels

A few months ago I lost my Bun-Bun, and I went threw all the grief and the turmoil of loosing my pet but I learned to deal with the pain and the guilt of having to see her slip away from my life.
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !

[george]

I'm sorry for your loss.i feel the same way when you say it's hard for others to understand the grief of a lost pet. you arent hanging on too much. everyone has their own pace in grief. dont let someone try and rush you. you arent rediculous. you did the best for your bun bun by letting her move on. im sure bun bun knows your decision was from the heart and it was to relieve her of pain. it was a selfless act of kindness you did for bun bun and she must love you for it. ive had to make that hard decision as well for my kitty acorn in the summer. you might have regretted it if you didnt put bun bun down and she suffered. there really is no winning in a sad situation as the passing of a loved pet. my heart goes out to you and your angel bun bun

-corina and her angels

Thank you Corina
You know how it feels, it's horrible ! If I only could have given her a little more time. I guess I am playing God with that kind of thinking but at lease I'm sure there is no other way, no other miracle, no chance. I don't want to play hero either, I just wanted to see she got all the time she was supposed to have. I never wanted her suffering to continue but I just did not have a choice. As you know with Acorn that day is like no other, your love and tenderness to them has to be put to the test and let them go. I have been told over and over by the vet that it was the right thing to do and I really relive that. But now I have to convince my memory bank that it was right. I sound selfish that "I" coudent give her more time, I only wanted to do the right thing for her. Every one in my family has moved on but me. I was the one there, I made the choice, I hope I did the right thing.
Peace be with you
George