I Lost My Friend, Now She's Alone.

A few months ago I lost my Bun-Bun, and I went threw all the grief and the turmoil of loosing my pet but I learned to deal with the pain and the guilt of having to see her slip away from my life.
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !

I Lost My Best Friend Bun-bun..

A few days ago we returned home after a few days to fine our family pet cat Bun-Bun having trouble breathing, we took her to the vet and quickly he said to put her down because of heart and lung problems. This pet was a family member for 17 yrs, a witness to the growth and development of our family, a family member who was alway there, always gave love alway sat quiet aside as we went on our daily duty's but was always there. I sweet face cat with a heart of gold. She touched our family so deeply and as left a hole in our lives. We regret doing what we did, maybe there was another way, maybe it was her time, maybe it did not have to happen. The entire family has been crying for 4 days, none of us can eat or sleep, or work, or go to school or work. We cant get over this. Maybe we made a mistake. I cant forgive myself for doing this to a family member. This was not our first pet or have we not been threw this type of thing before, it just happen so fast that I regret not giving it more time to develop. Our other pets all crying as much as the people in the family are. I cant bare to think of this as a mistake. I have tried to seek help for grief counseling but have not been able to find any.I am so pissed off at the vet and myself for jumping the gun. I don't know what to do..I failed my family. SOB why wasn't I given more time to think about this. Why can I have that day to do over ?