The Emptiness I Feel Is Beyond Words Options

[Magesmumma]

I have just found this website and the tears come again as I write. And tears have flowed as I have read other people's stories of love and some have brought smiles as I remember the good times. My most beautiful boy, Magion, left this world 28 August this year and I miss him soooo much. The loneliness I feel without him here is beyond all words. His things are in every room and his presence everywhere. I still haven't slept in the bed having left it the way it was the last time we were together there. The pain is intense - and I'm seeing lots of grief counsellors - but this site seemed to offer a sense of kindred spirit. I miss him so and am now totally on my own. The photo of him I've attached as my avatar is like he is with me as I type, because he was the one to say "well that's enough computer work now, time to play."
We were together for just on 17 years and he would have just been 18 - being, I was told, one year old when I met him at the RSPCA (a pet adoption centre and hospital) in 1991. I just need other people who understand the pain to chat with... I can't believe he is gone.

[toonie]

It's like the songs say - how does the world keep on turning when someone you've loved (and do still) is not here.

Thank you for your words again. I particularly like where you said, "I consider your sharings a 'gift of the Magi'." He was very special to me, and his name was chosen for him by 'something/one' far greater. I was truly blessed when he came into my life. And I do want to honour him with my life now - I am just finding everything so incredibly hard.--Mage's mamma

Wendi, I remember the words to that song, one of the mantra songs whispering in my heart during most of the first year, (don't they know, it's the end of the world, it ended when I lost your love)
of mourning my soulmate cat, as we try to find another reason to stay alive. At first the impact is such that there is not much you can do other than suffer, in time you will come to the point where you will be following Furkidlets footsteps:

[i]Every single thing that you learn because of your love for and with Mage will always, always count, and will become another part of his legacy in your life. No matter how long you're still in pain, you will carry that legacy with you, just as you carry him in your heart and soul. And it WILL affect others when you pass it on, however you pass it on. You will help change the world through yours and Mage's legacy of love. This is no small thing[i]

Furkidlets Mom.

And we thank Sabin, Nissa and you Furkidlets for this ''no small thing", the only thing, a tribute, an honour and love that goes on and beyond, a reason to go on.