I Collapsed During Euthanasia Options

[kodiak'smom]

Kodiak had to be put to sleep today - her other leg started knuckling. 3 weeks ago she was fine and now she is gone.

My 19 yr old son was with her during the "return home". She fought until the end - which makes me sicker, she tried to fight the anesthesia overdose...she was such a fighter, a strong girl, so loving.

I couldn't watch - but I had the most weird experience happen. I swear I could feel the first injection (I wasn't watching) and my heart began palpitating, a few seconds later I just knew it was over. We were outside the vets office - she was on the grassy lawn - and I had this desire to run, run as far as I could. I started walkinging then running toward the entrance to the vet hospital and collapsed on the asphalt and heard someone scream - I didn't realize the scream came from me.

I know the vet or techs have never seen any reaction from a human like this - I warned them ahead of time I didn't know if I would react or be peaceful...the vet said most are peaceful, I wasn't and they probably think I am crazy to love an "animal" so much, that I could have such a reaction.

I sit here now in shock - my son is stunned, my husband is "playing" normal and trying to stay busy, but I know my husband will be hit hard soon as our darling girl followed him everywhere and he loved her so much.

What now? I have 2 more aged dogs - how can I ever do this again? I mean I collapsed.

Has anyone heard of anyone collapsing?

With sadness and sorrow -
Dana
Kodiak' Mom

[AngelCareOne]

Dear Dana, my apologies. I gave those links to someone else and not you. Please, let me give them to you now. I do believe you'll find both very helpful to you. Both are here at LS in the Pet Loss Support Resources and Articles but I'll put links here for you to click taking you directly there. Here they are ...

Your Fur Child Loss Devastation - Emotions and Behavior Caused By Pet Loss

REGARDING: VIRTUAL "LIGHT A CANDLE"

Please do take a look. Truly, I feel you won't regret it and would greatly benefit. God Bless!

More Comforting Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox