The Emptiness I Feel Is Beyond Words Options

[Magesmumma]

I have just found this website and the tears come again as I write. And tears have flowed as I have read other people's stories of love and some have brought smiles as I remember the good times. My most beautiful boy, Magion, left this world 28 August this year and I miss him soooo much. The loneliness I feel without him here is beyond all words. His things are in every room and his presence everywhere. I still haven't slept in the bed having left it the way it was the last time we were together there. The pain is intense - and I'm seeing lots of grief counsellors - but this site seemed to offer a sense of kindred spirit. I miss him so and am now totally on my own. The photo of him I've attached as my avatar is like he is with me as I type, because he was the one to say "well that's enough computer work now, time to play."
We were together for just on 17 years and he would have just been 18 - being, I was told, one year old when I met him at the RSPCA (a pet adoption centre and hospital) in 1991. I just need other people who understand the pain to chat with... I can't believe he is gone.

[Magesmumma]

Thank you Ann. I have left everything everywhere. There is no reason to pack anything up and I agree entirely with what you say - to not

see all his "stuff" lying around the house, that's when it really hurts.

. I can't put his stuff away - his tower that goes to the ceiling is in the lounge with numerous houses and cushions around, he had his own room with towers and my old single bed and cushions and tents - there is a pic of him on his bean bag in his room up above. He had things everywhere. It's hard to see things without him though - I expect he will walk out from somewhere and jump up on the couch for a cuddle and snuggle. I was blessed that we were together so long, he taught me so much - we grew very close over those years, it is indeed so very strange now without his presence. I have never been so privileged before with a feline companion, and Magion brought out an entirely different part of me.

Thanks for the hug - I can use those.

Wendi.

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