6 Weeks On Options

[westiemum]

Only six weeks on, feels like six years.!!!!!


The pain is even more strong, maybe reality has crept in, who knows? I just feel bereft!! I don't look for my bestest friend in the whole world anymore, because I know he has gone, because I felt him leave me, as he was in my arms, but I never imagined the feeling of perhaps insecurity, does that make sense???? You know, when the whole universe is against you, and your best buddy (who thinks you are just perfect, and totally trust and believes in you, and agrees), then in reality, he isn't there anymore, and you just don't know what to do, I am fed up with people telling me that my boy had a good life, no my boy and I had the best life ever, together...... Life without him is just bearable.

I have gone through some tough times and that little man saw me through it, and the person who gave me that precious little soul also was called away too soon!!!! I always said that Scooby was the inspiration that kept me going. I have a son who has a very severe illness, a mother who is nearly 90 years old and I miss my best pal so much, I used to say that whe he went I would lose my sanity, and sometimes I am scared I will. I am finding it hard to see tomorrow without my boy, but I know in my heart that he wantws me to go on, why is it so hard???????

I have to thank everyone who took the time to reply to me, thank you so much

[westiemum]

Thank you Ann for your thoughts it is so hard isn't it?

Hi Bubba, I am so sorry about Willy, like yourself I thought I was doing really well, then it comes back with a vengeance. I have a little kitten called Ollie who is just adorable and I love him to bits and I know what you mean by but...... I can relate exactly to how you feel. Take care I will be thinking of you.

Hi 4Bentley,
Thank you for your support. I am so sorry for the loss of your baby, I know exactly what you mean about the halloween clothes, I bet he was so cute as a lobster. I found Scoobys little hooded top the other day, he used to love dressing up, like yourself I just fell apart. I don't know either when it will get better but I do find I feel better after having a good cry.
I guess it's a case of taking it a day at a time. Take care.

Hi AngelCareOne

Thanks again for the comfort you so unselfishly give, and as for not being able to express yourself as well with words, I beg to differ, you have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. the images are pretty amazing too. You have helped tremendously, I did go and read the articles you suggested and found them very helpful, just to realise that I am not going mad is a relief, also having this place to come and speak to others who understand is wonderful. I am sorry for you loss and the obvious devastation you too feel, I was being very selfish and wrapping myself up in my own grief, everyone here is suffering, perhaps at different stages, but we all have the same thing in common.
I was lucky to have had such a long and beautiful life with Scooby and I so thankful for that, he wouldn't want me to be so miserable. You are right I will never stop missing him, in time I am sure the pain will be less acute. I do feel so much more at peace today, thanks to the kindness I have received here.

You have been very helpful to me, and many comforting hugs to you. Take care.