6 Weeks On Options

[westiemum]

Only six weeks on, feels like six years.!!!!!


The pain is even more strong, maybe reality has crept in, who knows? I just feel bereft!! I don't look for my bestest friend in the whole world anymore, because I know he has gone, because I felt him leave me, as he was in my arms, but I never imagined the feeling of perhaps insecurity, does that make sense???? You know, when the whole universe is against you, and your best buddy (who thinks you are just perfect, and totally trust and believes in you, and agrees), then in reality, he isn't there anymore, and you just don't know what to do, I am fed up with people telling me that my boy had a good life, no my boy and I had the best life ever, together...... Life without him is just bearable.

I have gone through some tough times and that little man saw me through it, and the person who gave me that precious little soul also was called away too soon!!!! I always said that Scooby was the inspiration that kept me going. I have a son who has a very severe illness, a mother who is nearly 90 years old and I miss my best pal so much, I used to say that whe he went I would lose my sanity, and sometimes I am scared I will. I am finding it hard to see tomorrow without my boy, but I know in my heart that he wantws me to go on, why is it so hard???????

I have to thank everyone who took the time to reply to me, thank you so much

[4Bentley]

I feel like I could have written that myself. For me too it has been 6 weeks since i lost the love of my life and it's not any easier. I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad. I know how horrible it is and I wish I could take all of our pain away. I still cry 4 or 5 times and day and even a few hours ago I was bawling I'm sorry to my baby. It hurts so bad. I don't know when it will get better. I find myself wishing the days away. My mother lost her favorite dog in an accident 30 YEARS ago and still tears up when she talks about it.

I too feel the frustration when people tell me my baby is in a better place. No, the best place is with me in my bed, going for walks. He didn't have a good life. his was cut short and he too died in my arms. Now i think about how i won't be able to dress him for halloween like I did every year. Today I looked in the closet and stumbled upon his costume from last year. He was a lobster. And I held it in my hands and broke down.

I'm so sorry for your loss and my heart goes out to you.

P.S. I can relate to those images for sure.