Calvin, About my kitty. Options

[TinaKay]

My kitty Calvin passed away at 1:31 this morning from Liver Disease. It came upon him so quickly I can't believe he was sick and now I can't believe he's gone. He was just diagnoised Tuesday. He was having trouble walking and breathing last night so I knew his time was near to leave me.
I put him to bed with me and held him in my arms. He passed away and I haven't stopped crying yet. I miss him so much and every little thing makes me think of him. I had him for 4 years. He belong to a friend who moved away and couldn't take him with her. I adopted him and fell in love. He was my baby boy and I feel like I lost my child. He was only 10 years old. I thought he'd live for at least another 5 to 8 years. I know that's stupid as cats get sick at different times and die but I never thought my Calvin would leave me like this.
I also have two other cats, Jessie (who I've had since she was a kitten and she's 12) and Mr. Boots who really belongs to my Mother who lives with me but I love him too. He will be 3 months old the 1st of September. I've been loving on them extra today.
Calvin is the first pet that I have had to die. It's so hard. I feel lost without him and I feel guilty, like it's my fault, even though I know it's not.
Will I ever feel better?

Tina Kay

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[SJ J & S]

Of course youll feel better, but for now the hurt will feel like its tearing you apart and the tears will never seem to cease. This is ok its all part of the mourning process and something we have all gone through or going through.

I guess its especially hard the first time, the pain is so unexpected, we know well be upset but just how much comes as something of a surprise.

Give Jessie and Mr. Boots (I love that name) lots and lots of love and cuddles their missing Calvin too.

I love the picture of Calvin did he have pink eyes?