Still Doing The "anniversary Thing" Options

[Steph]

Today it's been 14 weeks since Luba died. I don't know why I have to got through this almost Saturday. Not to mention the 5th of each month, during which I do the "month" anniversary. Sigh.

One time I forgot to think of Luba's death anniversary on a Saturday (in week 12). Then I felt so badly, even though it probably means that there has been some healing. How long does this go on I wonder???

[Steph]

Sharon, I know that exhaustion related to social functions too.

A week after Luba died had to go to a kid's birthday party. It was close to my house, and I had to come home briefly because I got so drained there. I felt as though I was shattered to pieces, and all of the kids were really grating on my nerves. I just couldn't pretend that all was well.

Yes, Falkor is a blessing in this horrid year. He was quite sickly right around the time Luba died. However, it turned out arthritis, and hypothyroid, plus the depression of losing Luba (and losing me as a result of my intense grief). It was all too much for him, and he spent about 22 hours a day sleeping. (he's got epilepsy on top of everything else!)

He's improved so much with his medication, and with me being more upbeat around him. I could have lost them both, but I'm blessed with his joyful presence in my life for a bit (hopefully a very LONG while) longer...