House Is So Empty Options

[MAXIESMOMMY]

My house and me are so empty. How do you get rid of this feeling of emptiness and loneliness? I come home from work and sit on the stairs because I don't want to go in. I have a husband, so it's not like I'm alone all the time. I just miss my little baby soooooo much. I still feel like an empty shell. I don't look forward to anything any more. I used to live for the weekends, now I dread them because I used to spend a lot of time with Max. My house is so quiet. No barking, no crunching puppy bites, no playing and shaking his toys all over the hardwood floor. Just empty and lonely and sad.
I am a supporter of Small Paws Rescue and they said I qualify for a puppy because I am a griever. They said the puppies are heart menders and fix broken hearts. Should I get one to fill up the emptiness? I can't do that to Max. Just replace him. He is sooooo special to me. Would another puppy break my heart again? I can't go through this again. I am already on anti-depressants. What's my next step???? I'm so confused. Do I start doing things that I was restricted from doing before, because I had Max and had to be there to take care of him? But...I don't feel like doing anything. Has anyone been this confused??????? How can I stop this emptiness and sadness and not wanting to do anything? I go to work each day, but I look like hell. I'm ready to cry at anything. I feel like a delicate flower (although I don't look like one), who is just waiting to be crushed. My husband gives me lots of hugs and we cry together. He's very sad also. But he can move on. I am just stuck in this. I have a poem from Marcia about remembering what he has left. I am not concentrating on what WAS anymore, I am concentrating on the here and now and I can't seem to stop missing him so much. What can I do?????? Even if there were things to do.....I don't want to do them!!!!! I'm falling apart.
Thanks for listening
Carol

[gingerspal]

Dear Dietersmom! Could you copy and paste your story into a new thread? I am afraid not so many people will see your story tucked inside Maxiemommy's thread.
I am so sorry about your losing your Dieter!! Many of us here have pets as family--(I do!) several of us feel our loss has similarities of losing a "child" --but of course lots of people with children take offense to such a notion (not having a full appreciation for how much we can be invested in our "fur children")---My heart goes straight out to you and your husband!! I wish I could give you a real life hug. I hope you are aware and believe that your Dieter is at the rainbow bridge with all our pets now--100% happy and playful and young as he once was!! He will play and cavort with Ginger and all the other pets until that day when he can be reunited with you!
I am thinking of you!!
hope you will start a new thread so other folks can "talk" with you!!
Love,
Patti