House Is So Empty Options

[MAXIESMOMMY]

My house and me are so empty. How do you get rid of this feeling of emptiness and loneliness? I come home from work and sit on the stairs because I don't want to go in. I have a husband, so it's not like I'm alone all the time. I just miss my little baby soooooo much. I still feel like an empty shell. I don't look forward to anything any more. I used to live for the weekends, now I dread them because I used to spend a lot of time with Max. My house is so quiet. No barking, no crunching puppy bites, no playing and shaking his toys all over the hardwood floor. Just empty and lonely and sad.
I am a supporter of Small Paws Rescue and they said I qualify for a puppy because I am a griever. They said the puppies are heart menders and fix broken hearts. Should I get one to fill up the emptiness? I can't do that to Max. Just replace him. He is sooooo special to me. Would another puppy break my heart again? I can't go through this again. I am already on anti-depressants. What's my next step???? I'm so confused. Do I start doing things that I was restricted from doing before, because I had Max and had to be there to take care of him? But...I don't feel like doing anything. Has anyone been this confused??????? How can I stop this emptiness and sadness and not wanting to do anything? I go to work each day, but I look like hell. I'm ready to cry at anything. I feel like a delicate flower (although I don't look like one), who is just waiting to be crushed. My husband gives me lots of hugs and we cry together. He's very sad also. But he can move on. I am just stuck in this. I have a poem from Marcia about remembering what he has left. I am not concentrating on what WAS anymore, I am concentrating on the here and now and I can't seem to stop missing him so much. What can I do?????? Even if there were things to do.....I don't want to do them!!!!! I'm falling apart.
Thanks for listening
Carol

[Stymy's Mom]

Dear Carol,

I understand and I am going through the same thing. My husband works on Saturdays and that was my time alone with Stymy. He like to help me clean and chase the va%%e. Then when I was done we would lay around for the rest of the day. Now I am having a hard time cleaning because I don't have my buddy with me. I have dust every were! (its' been almost 4 weeks)

I think about getting another dog now, but I am afraid I would compare the new dog to Stymy and that would not be fair. Stymy had cancer for about 5 months before we put him down, so I put my life on hold to spend more time with him. I can understand about doing things you haven't been able to do. I am going to wait to get another animal. That doesn't mean that if a stray was sitting on my back door tonight I wouldn't take him in, but I think I still need to heal my heart. I think when I am stronger emotionally, I can be a better mom to a new puppy.

Do what you need to do because everyone is different. What is good for me may not be good for you. And only you know what is the best thing for you.

Best wishes,
Vicki (Always Stymy's Mom)