Rassy cat & Howard, Sick with kidney failure Options

[jackjackbojack]

**Joanne (jackjackbojack is a new member here. Two of her precious furkids (Rassy cat & Howard ) are very ill with kidney failure. With Joanne's permission, I'll do my best to get her posts together (along with their replies), so that she can have her own thread. **

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My two babies are dying of Kidney failure. There is just so little time left. My Rassy cat is 18.5 years old. My Howard is 16. I have been through this once before with my kittywillow. People here are so compassionate and kind. I can't stand it when people say to me its just a cat. Its not. These are my babies. I know how much joy those special little ones bring into our lives.

We enclosed our patios and made them into cat rooms. (We have one upstairs and one downstairs. We refer to our cats as the ups and downs. My up cats will soon cross over the Rainbow. All I will have are some pictures and lots of wonderful memories.

I don't want them to suffer. Rassy cat is still holding on. I know he doesn't want to leave me. Howard still has some time left before the curtain falls. I told Rassy Cat whenever he feels its time, to just let go. I would much prefer to see him die peacefully in his sleep rather than having to put either down. Howard is so attached to Ras, and sick that we might put him down just so he doesn't have to suffer the heartbreak of loosing his best friend esp in his condition.

I just continue to check on my babies. Rassy cat sleeps so soundly. I just keep checking to see if he will wake up. I try not to cry in front of him. He knows how much I adore him. And the last thing I would ever want to do is keep him alive if he is in pain.

Today, I told him, whenever you are ready to let go, its ok. Always know, I love you as much as life itself.

[forduffy]

Oh Joanne,
Please don't riddle yourself with guilt. You so don't deserve that after all that you have been through and are going through. Rassy had a full life- hey, he probably saw places in this country that a lot of people haven't. And every time you moved, he was always surrounded by love. I'm sure if he ever looked back on his life, he would feel that he loved every bit of it. That monster vet was NOT your fault. You were just as much a victim. Someone in one of the other posts mentioned that when it is time, it doesn't matter what cir%%stances. If Rassy had had a good vet, but it was his time, it could have happened another way. There is a sequence that happens whether we want it to, or not, and we have no control over it. Stop beating yourself up. You are such a loving and strong individual who did more than the best for your baby. You are hurting so much now- take care of that. Don't victimize yourself a second time.

I have no idea when it stops hurting. I'm still trying to figure that one out. But there are certain things in life that bring a smile to your face. Sometimes when I think of the funny things that Duffy did, I laugh out loud. They used to make me bawl but I'm finally at the point that I can smile, if only for a short time.
Take care and many hugs to you and your family. You are all in my thoughts.