Rassy cat & Howard, Sick with kidney failure Options

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**Joanne (jackjackbojack is a new member here. Two of her precious furkids (Rassy cat & Howard ) are very ill with kidney failure. With Joanne's permission, I'll do my best to get her posts together (along with their replies), so that she can have her own thread. **

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My two babies are dying of Kidney failure. There is just so little time left. My Rassy cat is 18.5 years old. My Howard is 16. I have been through this once before with my kittywillow. People here are so compassionate and kind. I can't stand it when people say to me its just a cat. Its not. These are my babies. I know how much joy those special little ones bring into our lives.

We enclosed our patios and made them into cat rooms. (We have one upstairs and one downstairs. We refer to our cats as the ups and downs. My up cats will soon cross over the Rainbow. All I will have are some pictures and lots of wonderful memories.

I don't want them to suffer. Rassy cat is still holding on. I know he doesn't want to leave me. Howard still has some time left before the curtain falls. I told Rassy Cat whenever he feels its time, to just let go. I would much prefer to see him die peacefully in his sleep rather than having to put either down. Howard is so attached to Ras, and sick that we might put him down just so he doesn't have to suffer the heartbreak of loosing his best friend esp in his condition.

I just continue to check on my babies. Rassy cat sleeps so soundly. I just keep checking to see if he will wake up. I try not to cry in front of him. He knows how much I adore him. And the last thing I would ever want to do is keep him alive if he is in pain.

Today, I told him, whenever you are ready to let go, its ok. Always know, I love you as much as life itself.

[nickels]

Dear Joanne,

As I read your post I can tell you your grieving is moving into new stages and quickly. Don't get me wrong, the pain will be bad for much longer, but you are moving forward. I have been emailing my Mothers Priest and a Prayer board today about her recovery. I prayed for her and everyone here at Lighning-Strike as well as everywhere that there is someone experiencing their own private hell that they may have some peace, at least to rest through physical sleep. I sometimes ask for signs and when I do I find them. I didn't ask for a sign this time but as usual the Big Guy sent me one anyway. A shiver ran through my spine and the hair on my arms stood up when I read your post. I live probably less than 5 miles straight down the road from you ! What are the odds? I will email you my info and we can also talk on the phone. I look forward to talking to you at your convenience. All I can say is that I couldn't have written a more heart felt post on surviving your trauma as you have written. Your post says it all. It is so healing and full of hope. It's actually a post I would recommend to anyone that is going to go through half of what you've been experiencing. It's absolutely beautiful and so very moving what you said.

I can see you helping others down the road with their losses. I'm sure Rassy would be at such peace knowing the love you gave him on this earth will be passed on to others. How your pain will turn into understanding and compassion for others going through their personal losses and help them in their time of need. The Blessings this board has brought are amazing.

Well I'd better get to bed but I would love to talk to you at your convenience.

Michelle