Chaos, Today is one month since he's been gone. Options

[Chaos, my little...]

I knew that today (the one month anniversary of his passing) was going to be hard, but it's hurting more than I thought that it would. I miss my sweetest boy so much today. I'm going to go to the park this evening and spend a little while with him. It will be the first time I've gone there since I buried him.

There will never come a day that I won't wish I could have him back. There will never come a day that I will stop missing him.

-Jenn (Chaos' Mom)

[Chaos, my little...]

Thank you to everyone that wrote, your thoughts and sentiments are very appreciated. I didn't go to see Chaos yesterday, I decided to wait for my sister to return to town so that she could go with me (she helped me to bury him). So I will most likely go with her in the next few days. It was just too painful, going by myself. I felt pretty badly though, not going to see him on the one month anniversary. It's still extremely hard to accept that he's gone. He's been in my thoughts CONSTANTLY for the past two days. I miss him so much, it's unreal.